achroous

nineteen

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you don't know the effect you have on me.

you don't know i shiver by a single glance

all of my cells dance in joy

my brain travels around my body

my words seem to leave, too.

thus you didn't know how it took me off guard

as i noticed you sit next to me at canteen.

then, you threw your arms around my neck, pulling me towards you,

till i could smell the different odour of your skin.

it made me down,

it made me sink deeper and deeper.

i didn't know why and i didn't ask

because i thought if i ever made a voice,

the magical atmosphere would be ashes and dust.

then, you sighed with relief,

hitting me a little and seeking around.

meanwhile , I knew.

my eyes were all upon you,

waiting for an answer,

an explanation for what you've done.

however, all you have ever done was smirk.

a cunning 'i'm sorry' kind of smirk.

then, you mumbled a thank you

and disappeared.

leaving me there,

staring at your way,

cursing at your selfishness and blindness,

covering up my feelings and holding back my tears.

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