Life according to Delshawn

CH.7 Why you got to be so cruel

" Let gets going Antonio, move your ass."
Antonio POV at age 9
" I wish daddy would chill out sometime he always on me so much and I don't know how much longer I can take this."
Present Day
I usually don't like thinking about him, my dad and i never saw eye to eye and even after his passing, I still felt nothing for him
He was a grade A asshole and always tried to find ways of tearing me and my moms down. Even though he left us more then 9 million from his time of playing professional ball I still hate him and I don't know if I will ever stop....." , "A penny for your thoughts." D said " what ?" I said not realizing how deep in thought I was. "What are you thinking about so hard that's got you with your mean mugging face." He laughed as a sweet but corny attempt to lighten the mood. " Its nothing don't worry about it." I said in monotone voice, I saw it caused him to retreat a little and he simply began to look out the window. We sat in silence for 20 mins. Before D finally broke the silence, " why do you do that Antonio." He said, " Doing what Delshawn?" I asked still in the same tone. " Being playful and nice to me one min. And then next min. you act like you can't stand me you fucking moody as hell". He said, I pulled over to the side i then turned to him " Let's gets one thing clear nigga, you and me have only an arrangement of being fuck buddies, and that's it, we are not in a relationship and the moment you begin to cross that line into thinking we are is the moment I leave you looking super stupid so don't fucking ask me about anything other than when, where and how long am I getting this Dick." I knew it was harsh and I saw D face as he felt crushed at what I said but I can't allow him to get the wrong I dea about us he looking for more I'm just looking for a satisfying fuck, which I hope....." Stop the car." D said. " what did you say ?" I looked at him puzzled. "Stop the car Antonio " D repeated. " why, I'm taking you to the spot I want to show you...." before I could finish D yells at the top of his lungs " STOP THE FUCKING CAR ." I pull over to the side again and D gets out and starts to walk up the dark street, he actually is mad at me, this is the second time I have ever seen him blow up like this. I slowly began to pace beside him. "D get back in this car it's dark as fuck and u don't know whats out here. " I said D didn't respond he just kept walking forward. " Are you being serious right now, you giving me the silent treatment really bitch ." I said, D stopped and turned towards me " you have such a selfish attitude when it comes to your feelings, or with your kindness but as for me you give me the middle finger, you let me have all the animosity hurt and pain u have experienced and then you toss it on me And everyone else gets the mask of your phony exterior, how shocked would they be if they saw how much of a coward and emotionally crippled fuck boy you are." He said as he walked away. " oh and btw don't bother me again. " Delshawn walked away. " fine fuck it you want to walk itsYour funeral. " I threw up the dueces and drove off." As I rode down the road I was thinking to myself " shit I did it again to him, why you so mean to him Ant , D was ready to give it up but as usual when I take interest in a guy I some way or some how i fuck it up." End of Chapter 7