The things I couldn't tell you (Taehyung x reader, ft yoongi)

March

She's a popular girl,
Everyone wants to friends with her,
Yet she still talks to me,
She doesn't think I'm weird,
Or a loner,
Or creepy,
Or any of those things other call me.

We often share our dreams and passions,
What we want to be and who we want to become.
She wants to help animals in need she says,
But when she asked me what I wanted to be,
I just shrugged my shoulder and smiled,
"I don't know," I told her,
I knew what I wanted to be,
But if I cant live past 18,
What is the point?

I asked her to hang out,
And she smiled happily,
I get a nervous feeling these days
My heart skip beats around her,
I wonder if it's because of that

She's talking to me about a guy,
Min Yoongi was his name I think,
The guy with a leather jacket who rides a motorbike,
Captain of the football team,
The one that has her heart,
I smiled the whole time,
Laughing along to her jokes,
And watches as her eyes lit up to the thoughts of him,
How her cheeks blushed red.
But I wasn't happy,
And I didn't pay attention,
All I thought about was how he captured her heart.
And why it wasn't me

What's this feeling?
I wondered to myself,
Jealously?
Sadness?
Worry?
And why am I feeling this way?

She told me about a time she went out with her friends,
She said she was out late and got drunk,
How she couldn't see nor walk properly
And some guy tried to take advantage of her.
She remembers Yoongi coming to save her, she said.
"He was so cool," she smiled.
"He took care of me and carried me on his back because my heels scarred my ankle,"

But she didn't know that it was one of the few things I never told her,
It wasn't Yoongi who saved her,
It was me.
It was also when I realised,
I have fallen for her.

I keep my distant away from her,
I isolate myself once again
And the more we drift apart,
The closer her and Yoongi became.
I didn't want to fall for her,
It wasn't my intention,
I can't.
Because if I try to win her heart,
She'll be hurt.

I can see them walking through the hallway together,
As everyone glued their eyes on them
Focusing on the heaven made couple
The girls wanted to be her,
And the boys wanted to be him,
So did I.

At least she'll be happy now.