naturally makki love story

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I breathed heavy as i basically insulted max
I hope he was not mad
" okay the next step is to share our insecurities "
Jesus says
Max goes first

"I dont know"

" come on max you can trust me" i blink like 10 times and make the biggest smile

" can i really?"

Does max have trust issues

" yeah we're best buds man" i said
That physically hurted me

Max made a weird face after

" i um have trust issues and
I guess i doubt myself a lot and
I may or may not have anxiety"

" its okay max " i felt bad i just wanted to engulf him in hugs and dance in flower beds with him ahh flowerss😔👌

I didnt know what insytee was but it sounded bad so i gave him a friendly pat in the shoulder
Max made a weird face again

Does he have to pee?

" umm well" i was nervous " it makes me feel small when people think im not girl enough
Sahsa really liked to put that in my head
Heh heh she kinda ruined my self esteem with all her ver·ball ay.byuse " i said trying my best not to sound stupid i hate when i feel stupid

I sit there scared
Then

Max gives me a hug

It was a quick one like one second(like the one he gave david at the pizzeria)

But it meant a lot to me moms hugs were not like that they were more like ' you would do it cause you love your mama right?' Kind of hugs and she would only hug me when she wanted me to act in stores so she can get cigarettes

Preston would be proud
Anyway i felt all tingly inside
Like i just went on the highest swing and my hart beated like it was gonna come out my chest
I couldnt breathe
I couldnt speak
If i open my mouth it will be random noises
Am i having a heart attack ?
How do you stop those again

Jeremiah explained how sharing in·seh·kur·idies was giving a peice of ourselves to the other and showing our trustfull bond to release stress or something
He said we would continue

I walked out the tent practically skipping
But then i bumped into tabii
Oh no

" hey nikki"

Oh nvm
" are you sure you dont wanna come to camp campbell you might as well "

" no im good "

" so hows life anything new ya know friends boyfriends crushes " tabii rambled

I got jittery
I didnt blush though
I dont know how people blushed
I never seen someone do that before
I feel like its only books

" nope " i lied  digging through my nails

" honey no its time for a makeover " tabii said pulling my arm

;v; wut