Just Got Lucky Book Two

Ch. 1

HARRY

"Five weeks."

She's pregnant for a month and seven days.
I exhaled deeply as I try to settle myself. The first thing I thought of when she told me that she was conceiving our baby is worrying about her future and not mine.

My mind quickly worried about her because I know she has so many dreams she wants to achieve. She wanted to be a lawyer and wish to defend those oppressed people who are less fortunate to fight for themselves. She had dreams and I am ruining it.

I always ruin things.

I honestly didn't think of what the people will say about me knowing that Lindy was much younger than me and that she's pregnant at such a young age. I didn't even worry about the public not accepting it since it's really none of their businesses anyways.

I see tears filling up her eyes and I feel so bad for what I have done. In a split second, I hugged her tightly because I didn't know what else to do. Also, I wanted to make her feel that everything was going to be okay even though I know this will ruin her, highly the both of us. I tried to calm Lindy down and tried to relax her tensed muscles by rubbing her spine.

I know this was something unexpected and I know that she's far too young to have this kind of journey when she has so many dreams she wants to achieve. She has a bright future ahead of her and this baby could potentially shift her course. This baby will change all of our plans in life.
Clearly, we are both not ready for this. We weren't ready to be called parents.

Most importantly, I am not ready to be a father. Hell, I don't even know how to.

All those times I never used a condom makes me want to go back and wish that I should have had. It just feels different when it's bare and feeling her warmth wrapped around my naked dick makes me convulse in lust. Most importantly how in the world did I miss? I always pull out before I am going to cum. 

"Harry." She calls out with her soft voice. "I'm not ready for this." She pulls herself away from me.

I raked my fingers through my hair as we sat on our seats in silence. I think both of us were trying to organize our disturbed thoughts, most especially me.  I glanced at her and she looked much devastated as I was. I wiped her tears off her cheeks with my thumb and tried to smile at her.

I wanted to tell her that everything is going to be okay because we have each other, but I know that's too selfish of me to say. Even if there's that reassurance, there's still that unknown fear of how our future will unfold.

"I was doubting on telling you about this because I was scared." She mumbles.

"Why? Didn't I tell you that you can always tell me anything?"

"I know but this one is different, Harry. You're famous. I was too scared to tell you because what if you won't accept the baby? What if the baby would actually cause you to lose your career and your fans? I know how you love making music so much! You losing your career and everything you worked hard for would hurt me way more than—"

"You're always so selfless." I cut her off. "You know that?"

She sobs against her palms pressed against her face as I continued to say while embracing her again, "You never think of yourself first and what will happen to you. You have to know that my career isn't the only thing that's in line here. Your future too."

"I'm just completely lost right now." She answers me.

"I know you are." I pulled myself away and held her hand as I kissed her knuckles. "But even if you feel lost right now, you're not. You were never lost because I am here Lindy. I am happy that we are having a baby."