Memories

4

It was a fair evening, sasuke thought.
As he headed to the hyuga household to bid his soon to be his wife a fairly good night.
For the first time in his life, he felt something other than the nothingness.
"Good night sasuke san..." hinata smiled as they reached her door.
"Good night hyuga" he said stoically.
She smiled.
"Arigato for the fine evening" she said and bowed.
She turned and entered her house.
Sasuke watched as she entered her house gracefully.
She finally waved again before closing the door.
Sasuke sighed.
She was graceful, courteous , gentle and polite.
As he walked back to his house and sasuke always loved to walk.
His mind drifted off to the date.
He did go to a dates before.
Upon naruto's requests and his friends who tried to hook him up with many girls.
But he never felt he could talk to someone that deeply.
Or even, get into such a good universal conversation.
All the girls sasuke was hooked up with, were all light headed.
Caring about makeup, diamonds, position.
What she brought, with how much.
But hinata wasn't.
Hinata was actually smart.
And sasuke loved smart women.
His mother was a smart one as well.
He remembered every single detail they talked about.

Sasuke's eyes widened when hinata told him about his true inner self.
The facade he was wearing.
Not many knew it, only naruto did, only itachi and his family knew the real sasuke was.
But how can she be that smart to just realize his true self.
Was he easy to read? Or was she that smart.
"Don't worry sasuke san...an honorable wife keeps her husband's secrets and honor...and i shall do the same" she said as she felt the distress upon his face.
As if she busted him.
As if she knew a secret he kept and he didn't want to be known.
Sasuke smirked.
"Don't flatter yourself too much...thats way far from fact" he said as he sipped his wine.
Hinata nodded and didn't respond.
She knew that those defensive people tend to say that.
Tend to act so hard but they weren't.
Just like neji nii san.
Sasuke felt himself being tested.
She just nodded, and he hated such.
She must be taking him for granted!
He cursed inwardly.
As if he wanted to talk further in such subject.
As he was going to open his mouth she said.
"Gomenne sasuke san, i didn't mean to...pardon my bluntness and my naivety..." she apologized sincerely.
She didn't want to hurt his feelings or to make him hate her.
Hinata didn't want any hard feelings between her and her soon to be husband.
She had wished for a beautiful love story, maybe someone would breath the life into her after neji's death.
But not all our wishes come true.
So she'd settle for just being acquainted to sasuke.
Maybe friendship.
But however, she felt like apologizing, maybe he doesn't want her proposals.
She doesn't have the power to try and push things, she just lost her interests in life.
"Hm" sasuke just hummed after he was shocked.
She was what! Too gentle and polite.
Apologizing for stating a fact, and hurting his feelings.
None do such things anymore.
She smiled.
"We can talk about something else" hinata said as she tried to calm the tension.
"How did you know?" He asked bluntly.
Hinata's eyes widened.
"E..eh?" She stammered.
"How did you know i am like that!" He asked.
"You remind me of my deceased nii san, the one i prayed for at the grave by your relatives" she sighed.
"They aren't my relatives, they are otosan and aniki" he snorted.
"I am sorry for your loss, sasuke san..." she said sincerely.
"Its not your fault" he snorted.
"I guess both of us lost those who are dear to us...and i guess both our lives stopped since..." she said sincerely.
Sasuke again admired her.
She was sincere, and she did understand him.
And felt what he do feel inside, add on she could read him like an open book.
"I won't tell you like everyone and that you should look around for those who are alive and still love you, because whats gone can't be replaced...and i myself can't tell myself such" hinata said, and thats when sasuke's eyes widened.
For the first time, he was impressed.
Impressed that she didn't tell him those cliche words.
Impressed that she herself knew whats like to lose and have someone loving him but still he just can't get over it.
"But i guess time can heal...i hope so" she smiled.
The food came and they started eating.
Hinata noticed that sasuke loved tomatoes and he noticed that she didn't eat much.
However, she did eat, she didn't fake it and order salad or something tiny because she is obsessed about her looks.
She just ate like normal people and it was obvious she wasn't faking being 'cute'.
"Why haven't you finished your plate?" He asked.
"I'd like deserts more..." she smiled.
He raised an eye brow.
"I'll order deserts...cinnamon rolls, banana cinnamon pancakes and chocolates..." she smiled.
"All that?" He exclaimed.
"Hai...i think we should enjoy our lives...because we can die any instant..ne?"  She smiled.
Sasuke was impressed.
She is indeed natural, intelligent and above all gentle and understanding.
"Guess though you ate too much sweets you don't get fat?" Sasuke snorted.
"I don't care about my weight that much, as long as i am healthy...and i just keep myself busy so..." she sighed.
"You work?" He asked.
"Hai..." she said.
"Impressive" he continued.
It wasn't natural for girls her age or girls at that time to be working.
Most girls wanted a husband and a normal life, except for sakura who occasionally worked as a nurse but she stopped due to marriage.
Though, hyuga was wealthy family, yet she worked.
She giggled.
"So, whats your occupation, a house wife?" He taunted.
Hinata felt the sarcasm in his tone.
Sasuke taunted her because he hated to be impressed.
And hinata understood such.
She giggled.
"A doctor...and part time kindergarten teacher..." she smiled.
Sasuke couldn't hold the impression.
He was really interested.
She was a doctor.
Something girls can't reach or most don't go for it.
"I guess i didn't want anyone to suffer losing their dear ones...and i did it because i always wanted to since my mother died...And nii san..." she smiled sincerely.
Sasuke really admired her.
She turned her weakness and her loss to strength just like he did.
Hinata could see the bewildered face.
However she decided to dismiss as he gained his composure.
The desert was served and sasuke ordered coffee.
He watched as she ate all the deserts.
She tried to offer him as a generosity but of course he declined.
The rest of the evening went as hinata told him about whom she loved to listen to, that she loved painting and drawing.
She asked him about what he loved and he just answered walking.
"Then we can take a walk sometime...at the park" she smiled.
"Hm" sasuke nodded and felt warm feeling.
He never had someone to walk with, but here is she offering.
No other girl was interested into talking about him, but all talked about themselves.
She was interested into knowing what he loved and wanted.
She was asking him about it and even told him she'd share what he liked.
All girls he dated told him about her fantasies and that he should do that and this, and what she loved as if he is somehow her jenny, and would here to grant her romantic fantasies, not caring about what he liked or wanted.
They only cared about his looks, being with him and not caring or understanding what he wants.
He saw all girls selfish, but she wasn't.
Even she was forced to marry him, she is still being kind and selfless.
It was something new to sasuke.
And for the first time, sasuke felt he wanted to see her again.
After they finished, he helped her to put on the coat.
As he was stopping a taxi or a cart, she said.
"Lets walk home" she smiled at him.
"Hm" sasuke nodded.
And they walked in silence and he enjoyed such.
He enjoyed that though she was talkative, she knew when to enjoy the silence and a good walk.
Only the company.

"Huh" sasuke sighed as he found himself standing in-front of the the cinnamon shop.
He entered and he bought one cinnamon and tried to eat them, but they were too sweet.
Sasuke wanted to try to like something she did.
He then headed back to a cassette shop, and he ordered the tape of the same singer she told him about.
Sasuke cursed inwardly, why he was doing that, only that he was somehow almost...wanted to listen to the song she heard.

Hinata was at the kindergarten, she was singing to the children when suddenly, one of her colleagues entered.
"Hina ne..." kiba said.
"Hai?" She asked.
"Someone wants you..." kiba said.
"I can't leave them, could you please let him in" hinata said but suddenly she saw the uchiha guy.
Her eyes widened, he was in the military attire.
Hinata was wearing a dress colored with the children 's paint.
Sasuke looked then he kept his chuckle.
Hinata's face blushed.
"S..sasuke san?" She stammered.
He handed her a box, then said stoically.
"I'll pick you up tonight at eight" he said and then he left.
Hinata opened the box to find..cinnamon rolls.
Her eyes teared and she looked up but sasuke already vanished.