I cry blood out of my depression,
Losing myself is my new temptation,
They pushed me harder this time than the last summer,
I hid myself in a place they will never get to see my face,
I'm laughing with some jokes that I made myself,
I closed my eyes,
I took all the judgements that they threw at me and made 'em as the blanket to protect myself from this coldness,
I fell sick few times,
I'm afraid I'm gonna lose my mind next time,
I've been in a place where I'm feeling so afraid,
I'm scared,
Living behind my own shadow,
And I always wonder what's gonna happen tomorrow,
Now that I see some shits gonna make their way to me,
As I can feel that there will be rain on my city,
As they are slowly burning my own insecurities,
As they are slowly taking the sleeping soul out of me,
They said I'm a different person,
Little do they know that it took my own life for me to move on,
Now I'm crying with an empty heart,
Smile because I know the person that I used to be is no longer exist in this world,
Sad that it had happened,
I wanna cry,
I wanna scream out loud,
But the devil inside me is laughing,
They took away the walls that I created,
They threw shits into my kingdom,
They blamed me for being myself,
And now it is raining on my city.
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DEEPER BLACK ( POETRY / Random Thoughts )
Poetry#2901 Dedicated to everyone who lost themselves over something that worth nothing. [#1 Poem : 19 January 2019 -> 28 January 2019 ] [#1 Puisi : 31 January 2019 -> 3 February 2019 ]
