I feel so guilty to keep posting my shitty shit here but ;-; I don't really know where else to put it? a vent book seemed too excessive and I just ??? but frfr feel free to stop reading anytime, it's okay n I get it!
also some art sthsjfmfxhjrsm
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okay so like I'm not gonna go too deep into it rn but I hear voices a lot & see & feel things that aren't there (mostly feel,,,, like bugs crawling on me or liquid flowing down my arms or like someone touching/brushing against my shoulder/upper arm) & this had been going on for a while but has really accelerated(?) in the past year or so. & I've been feeling hella dissociated for quite a bit now (a couple of weeks I think) & it feels like nothing's real and I'm just dreaming & it's really freaky cause Ive always dreamed about my house & my backyard & my neighborhood and now it's /really/ starting to blend together & ngl I'm a bit afraid? I feel like I have to wake up & when I can wake myself up I'm gonna be with my actual family (not gonna go too much into this but they're the kinder voices I hear) should I talk to an irl friend or something? I don't think I'd be able to tell my grandparents at this point as one is in the midst of a serious trauma and the other is heavily substance addicted and isn't the nicest. can a therapist figure out what's wrong or do I have to talk to a psychologist?? & will this make me unable to medically transition in the future? kdjmsndnd I'm shaking sm y'all I genuinely just feel stuck :/
