saudade

Night

(tw)
they tell us that it's selfish

that when we think this way we think of nobody else

they tell us to hurt ourselves is a cry for attention

that we need help.

and maybe we do, maybe we need some help

but where are the same people who said that?

they aren't next to us at night when we are crying

they aren't there to stop us when we are ready to give up

at night when we are alone, they aren't the ones who give us company

they tell us to change then leave us alone to our thoughts, they don't stay to help.

they leave us

to our pills and razors and ropes

all night, all alone