falling for you

chapter five

———————Siennas POV———————
🚨mentions of abuse and harm🚨
we all look at each other not knowing what to do, theres another knock, i don't know how there's knocking, my room is upstairs theres no way someone could've got up to the window unless they used a ladder or done some parkour shit, i decided to break the silence "do you think someone's there or if its just like a tree branch or something" i whispered, dude i was scared that whatever it was would be able to hear us or something "is there a tree outside your window?" Addison asked, fuck there wasn't, "what should we do?" straight after i said that my phone pinged, we all shot to look at it on the floor
unknown: look outside
fuck, nonono what the fuck, i sighed putting my head in my hands, billie rubbed my back, "who's that?" Addison, Noah and Clara all asked at the same time "i don't know, they've been no stop messaging me since early this morning at like 1am and they wont tell me who they are, it's fucking weird" there was another knock, i started to shake, Noah got up and opened the curtains
"theres nothing" he mumbled thank god for that, we all started talking again about what just happened, i explained to them all more about the texts, the call earlier and what they said until my window smashed, i jumped like fucking fully jumped in the air, we were all screaming at the sudden thing that just happened, my heart was pounding, i didn't know what to do, what just happened? i looked on my bed, there was a big ass rock with a note on it "hi sienna, stop ignoring me- H"
"what. the. fuck" i handed the note to billie for her to read, i quickly ran to the cupboard in the hall to get the dustpan and brush so i could clean up the glass, i grabbed some strong tape and multiple pieces of square shaped cardboard whilst i was at it so i could put it on my window for the time being, i guess ill be paying at least $100 to get this fixed tomorrow, i sighed

Noah helped me collect up all the glass and taping up the cardboard on the broken window, i made sure there was no little parts of glass left in the carpet, billie, addison and clara just sat on the bed looking at their phones quietly talking about something, i couldn't make out what they were talking about, i had too much other stuff on my mind, i was so confused about what this is all about, whys its just suddenly happened, who it is, so many questions flowing through my mind that i need to know the answers to, i've never had a problem with anyone at school so no one has a reason to do this to me, a lot of people dislike me though, i don't know why, some people say it's because they apparently know i'm a lesbian and apparently i fancy them, like na thats not how it works, i don't like every girl i see

after i finish clearing up the mess and fixing up the temporary window i slump on my bed next to billie face planting my head into my freshly
billie hugged me
"are you okay" i just ignored her, it probably seems so petty but i just felt like i was going to break down into tears, i probably sound so stupid but it was so scary, this whole 'H' thing is so scary, the things thats happened with my mum in the past, her abusing me and my siblings, the things shes done to us it fucking traumatised me and still does, not everyday but when little things like this happen it just freaks me out, i got up and headed to the toilet, i took my phone with me, i could feel billies eyes burning into the back of my head, i couldn't look back at her though, she would know i was about to break

i knocked on the door as it was shut and i didn't know if noah or my dad was in there or not, they never lock the door idk why, thankfully they weren't in there though, i instantly locked the door and slid down against the wall, tears rolling down my cheeks, i held my legs close to my chest, im so stupid why am i like this, its so stupid it honestly is, all it was is a fucking stupid rock going through my window with a stupid note on it, this whole thing is some sort of fucked up shit, someones playing with me, i sat there crying for a few minutes when there was a light nock on the door
"can i come in?" it was billie, i quickly wiped away my tears, she's going to know i've been crying cus my eyes are red as fuck, oh well thats what excuses are for
"yeah" i unlocked the door, i went to walk past her presuming she needed the toilet, but she pushed me back before i could walk out
"no, we're talking, whats up?" i sat down on the floor, her sitting down next to me, she said it so softly my heart was literally about to pop out my chest i swear
"nothing" i mumbled "i know you've been crying" she pulled me into a tight hug what caused me to cry more "its okay baby you can cry, i've got you" we sat there for a few minutes like it when i decided to talk "i'm sorry" i said giving her a apologetic look "don't be sorry, do you want to talk about it?" i nodded, i figured it was time to explain what happened with my mum, i've not known billie long at all but i know i can trust her, there's no way i would be feeling like this for no reason at all.

"when i was little my mum, she used to abuse me, noah and clara, not so much noah and clara because they were always out with dad, he had no idea what was going on because it would always happen when he wasn't at home, but occasionally she did to it to the two of them when he went out to see his friends, we would always try go out with him as much as we could, every time he went out, we wouldn't care what he's doing we would just be willing to do anything to get away from her" i sighed "she would always let them two go and never me because i was 'the oldest girl' and we were having a 'girls day' well thats what she said to dad.. but no, the 'girls day' insisted on hitting me, strangling me, locking me in the heater room so i would over heat and occasionally pass out
if dad, clara and noah were out for the whole day she wouldn't feed me or let me drink and if i tried to get something she would always catch me on her little stupid secret cameras from amazon" i rolled my eyes "if she caught me she wouldn't let me eat anything for another 4 hours, adding more and more time onto it even if i tried to get a slice of something or even half a cup of water, she would always tell dad "shes already ate" "she told me she feels sick so it's probably best if she doesn't eat right now" but that was a lie, i was fucking starving, sometimes dad and the other two would take a few days away allowing me and mum 'to have a girls holiday at home' little did he know what happened, the whole time he was gone she would rotate to leaving me in the heater room and closet, once again, no food and drink, abusing me physically and mentally" at this point i was crying my eyes out, i didn't even notice, but i carried on talking "you're probably thinking why i didn't tell anyone, or my dad, but obviously clara and noah knew but they only knew the little bits, only the bits that happened when they were there, if i attempted in anyway to tell them or anyone god knows what've happened to me, she threatened me everyday reminding me not to tell anyone, she would threat me with death sometimes, until one day dad, clara and noah came home early and there i was, being fucking strangled by my mother, she instantly stopped, making up some sick excuse but i was there screaming and crying, he called the police then she got arrested, thats all we've heard of her since" i sat there crying, billie in silence clearly not knowing what to say "that's why i got so worked up about the whole window rock thing, its so bizarre, someone unknown under the letter 'H' none stop messaging you, knowing your full name and age, even worse where u live and your bedroom window, its so scary because i've never had any problems with anyone for this to happen to me and it just made me think of my mum because if this person was trying to harm me no one has since my mum did and it just reminded me of her and it just fucking hurts, i get the flashbacks and even can feel the pain running through my body like it was happening all over again" i sat there shaking, billie rapped her arm round me whilst i put my head on her shoulder crying
"i'm so so sorry Sienna, i could never imagine the pain and trauma you went though" she paused before sighing "i wont let anyone hurt you, ever, if anyone ever has a chance to i will beat their ass" i laughed "i'm sorry if i ruined tonight" i mumbled, she let go of me and pulled my face up to to look at hers, i didn't want her to see the mess i was in right now but oh well "you didn't ruin the night at all, i'm glad you told me about this, i love you sienna" she said wiping away my tears pulling me back into a hug
"i love you too billie" she kissed my forehead
"come on lets get you cleaned up" she helped me clean up my mascara and tied my hair back as we headed back to my room.
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hii guys, so i just want to say the events happened in this chapter have never happened to me before so i'm just saying it straight from my imagination, but i'm so so sorry if this has ever happened to you or is still happening to you, it might be hard to reach out to someone if this is happening but reach out as much as you can to anyone.
i also want to say irl I'm straight and in this story billie and sienna (and other upcoming people in the story) are lesbians so I'm just saying things that come from off the top of my head when they're flirting and stuff :)