¨̮DEAR DIARY
it's not fun.
it's not fun harming yourself for 16 days straight.
it's not fun being forced to betray your best friend. you wouldn't think it's fun to poke your arm with a needle multiple times, either.
how about watching horror movies the whole day? maybe that seems fun. or even listening to the same song the whole day, instead. over and over.
would it be exhilarating or horrifying to be sitting on a rooftop at 4:20 in the morning by yourself with your legs dangling off of it? maybe replace that rooftop with a bridge. not yet? how about a crane?
it's not fun.
it's fucking exhausting.
it's fucking exhausting to have to wake up at 12 o'clock every single day just to finish a task where the main goal is harming yourself.
self-harm is getting a blade and gliding it across your wrist in anticipation, but self-harm is also staying up even when you're tired. self-harm is not eating even when hungry. self-harm is doing something you dont want to do. it doesn't have to be physical harm, you know.
SEITAE
hiYOONCHILD
hiSEITAE
i just wanted to see if you were doing okaySEITAE
last time i saw youSEITAE
you looked sadYOONCHILD
i wasn't sad i was just a little bit tiredSEITAE
i can tell that's a lieSEITAE
that's an old oneSEITAE
yoongiYOONCHILD
hiSEITAE
if you're not feeling great you can tell meYOONCHILD
no i swear i was just tiredSEITAE
why were you tired?YOONCHILD
i just didn't sleep wellSEITAE
did you stay up late?YOONCHILD
yesSEITAE
that's self-harm, you knowYOONCHILD
i know but i didn't mean toSEITAE
please don't do it againSEITAE
i want you to get betterYOONCHILD
i knowwhy are you awake right now?
DEAR DIARY
YOU ARE READING
EVERYTHINGOES.
Fanfiction4:20 am sitting on a rooftop against his own will discontinued 4 now ... :p