Closet Thoughts

spinning

there are so many things in this world that i dont understand

like why my parents are so ashamed of Hayden and i
why our neighbors shun people like us
we've done nothing wrong
but all these questions keep spinning in my head

why don't they like us?
did we do something wrong?
are we wrong?
everyone says that they are right
will we be right....
when we're dead?

ive always smiled wide
for every single picture
and complied
with every wish they had
but now they're saying
we don't follow the scripture
and i can't speak of the thoughts
spinning in my head

my mother used to smile at me
she would laugh
and kiss my scraped knees

my father used to hug me tight
and tell me I was going to be alright

but they won't do that again
will they cry...
when im dead?

so many thoughts
spinning in my head

will anyone miss us
when we are dead?

will thoughts spin in their heads?
and maybe even....
regret?

i don't know
i don't know anything anymore

nothing but the thoughts

spinning in my head