Reminiscence of Existence

Chapter 22

"What are you thinking?" Asked Godt when he saw Copter was deep in his thinking. It was after dinner, when everyone had left for the day, leaving the two of them in the ward. They had used the whole evening discussing things to do. Though there's not much Godt could do been hospitalized and all, but he still could asked Arun for help. Arun have been investigating his dad since his grandfather was still alive. There must be much more information that guy had that didn't been reported to him, considering his relationship with his dad before. Well, he was blind before, and even though he could have doubt anything, he would put it aside, trying to think on the bright side, when he actually was lying to himself all those times.

"I was thinking how useless I am. All of you had things to do while I can't do anything, at all. How useless it makes me feel." Godt was sitting on his bed and Copter would always sit on his side, if he wasn't resting on the couch. "Don't think that way, Cop. As long as you are safe, it's all that matters to us, it matters to me." Copter was drowning in those amber eyes again. He didn't really realize it before, but those eyes had always been a great calming medicine to him, it soothes him. "Why?" All he could ask.

Godt was sighing. He inhaled deeply before giving away his answers to Copter. "I told you Copter. Might sound crazy to you, even it was still crazy to me, but that was what I really felt, Cop. I care for you, so much more that I can ever imagined I would care for someone else like this, but I did, ironically, and it's for you. I don't ask you to reply me right now, but all I ask is that for you not to push me away. Please, just let me be there for you."

Copter was looking straight to the eyes of the guy in front of him. This guy was a straight forward man, just like his P'Kim. They both had difference features, but both of them were handsomely built face in their own way. And both of them were extremely tall, and it irritates him sometimes. Why would they be so tall? But, Copter doesn't know how to reply the guy. It was like a checkmate, and he even didn't sure what he felt right now. With all the things keep reveal one by one, he felt something like a roller-coaster inside him that he couldn't determine what was he really felt right now, though he wished he could of some help. But just like Godt says, maybe he just needs to stay safe for now. So much trouble, he didn't wish those things to happen again.

Godt was watching Copter who actually deep in his own thinking, that he wished he knew what was in the head of the dimple guy in front of him. The guy didn't give him any reply but to just drown in his own reverie, ignoring Godt. But after sometime he could feel the affect of the medicine kicks in when he felt sleepy. He needs to let Copter with his own world when he was fixing his position carefully and lying down. He make sure he would watch Copter's face until he fall asleep, though he missed the dimples, he'll make sure he could see it once he was awake.

Tee, Tae and Wuttichai on their way back home in Tae's car. "Wutt, I think you should ask your parents too about the research they were talking about. I think it would be connected somehow." Tee was starting the conversation. "You are right, P'Tee. I will call them later on. What would you do about Sarawut, P'Tae?" Tae was the one driving just looking ahead while hearing the conversation, and even answering Wutt, he was still looking ahead. He was driving quite fast, so, it was dangerous just to lose his sight even a while.

Tae: "I don't have a clear idea yet. I was going to discuss things with my friends tomorrow, asking them to help."

Tee: "Who are they, P'Tae?"

Tae: "They were normal citizen just like us and have their own jobs, but they were part-time informer to some of the investigator. Usually, they were involved in much bigger cases like drugs or murder, so I'm not sure if they could be any help to us. Since this case wasn't officially reported, they might not have any information. But, I'm still going to try somehow. Tee, why would you asked Somchai their porn website?" Tee was smirking to the question. Wuttichai was looking forward to the answer too.

Tee: "So that I could use some skill of mine, P'Tae. I'm not the best hacker out there, but I'm still could do some digging without been tracked. Even Godt couldn't beat me to it, but then again, Godt had something else to focus on instead of to the things I would do."

Wuttichai: "You knew how to hack, P? Wow! You are so cool." Tae would smile and raking Tee's hair.

Tae: "You were so talented; you make me so proud of you."

Tae's remark makes Tee smile sheepishly, and he was blushing. Seriously, he felt hot in his face, stupid feeling he had, but he wasn't hating any of it, at all. Wuttichai would just smile while shaking his head. P'Tee was seriously changing into a different person he once known, but it wasn't all that bad. If better, he looks cuter that way than the stupid Casanova or a player he was.

"Why couldn't I move to the mansion? You promised me! I don't care, If I couldn't move there, you must get a bigger house than this condo!" Ellisa was shouting on his phone to his husband-to-be. She was the secretary who had an affair with Teerasak and was about to marry that man after so much persuasion in a month time. She was preparing her wedding at one of the biggest hotel in town. It was a long distance call, since Teerasak was still in United States, discussing about the research and a new system Arun was talking about.

"Please, understand honey. I'll buy you one later once everything is settled, okay. I need to secure everything, so that our future was secure. Just be a little bit more patient, okay?" Teerasak could hear her dear woman was hissing at his remark. "But you promised. I have been waiting for you for years, and when that woman died, I thought I finally I had my share, but you keep postponed everything. Did you have another woman?" she was pouting, using her sweet voice, trying to coax her man into her whims.

"Be patient a little bit more, okay, honey? I promised you, all this time you've been waiting will worth it. I missed you, please give me some kiss, I need to go to the meeting after this." Ellisa was pouting and jeering at the same time, feeling unsatisfied with her lover's decision, but she knew, she had to give in for the moment. She knew how to do calculating, and she knew what's good for her. So, she gave the kissed to the phone making a sound, so that her lover would be satisfied before ending the call.

Patient, patient and be patient. That's all she did all this time, and she could be patient a little bit more. The most important things to do now were the wedding. She'll make sure the day would be grand for people to remember and to respect her. It was a way she could use to rise her status up in the community. She will make sure to pay back to those who was underestimates her for her status. She'll make sure of it!

Her phone that was still in her hands was ringing once again, but it was from someone else. From another guy, another temptation that she couldn't fight off, though she knows for sure she shouldn't do this, but it was done with, as well to enjoy it. "Yes baby. Of course I am, I'll see you tonight. Miss you too."

End of Chapter 22