Reminiscence of Existence

Chapter 31

"I was planning on taking Adisak's team out the same way I was taking the three guys out from this side of the world. Please don't ask what I did to them, let it be just my business, my own doing, I don't want to involve you guys. The only reason I'm telling this is because I want my plan to synchronize with this new plan of ours." Krit would break the silences that strike them once again.

"Then why don't we strike them at the same time?" Now it was Copter's idea and everyone was focusing on him. "Adisak had been doing all this for a long time. He develops quite a network for this to happen worldwide and if we didn't do this fast, he could get furious, and we will fail. Remember, he had investors from the 'big' people, he could use them, if we ever gave him time to strike back." Everyone was frowning thinking about the things Copter had said.

"Copter was right. We need a plan that could strike him fast and breaking him right away. If we need more time, we need to do it discreetly without him having doubts. Once he has doubts, it will strike on us, badly." Uncle Arun was agreeing with Copter's idea, Krit was thinking, Tae, Tee and Somchai was actually nodding their head partly agree. They need to understand the whole plan to fully agree anyway. After some more thinking, Krit would talk again. "Okay, here what we are going to do...."

"Do you think our plan will be okay?" Copter was asking Godt while they were sleeping next to each other on the bed. It was late at night after everyone was going back home, and they would rest after having late dinner together with everyone else. "You were afraid?" Godt would ask. Copter was turning his head from looking straight up to the roof to Godt on his left. He then was nodding his head. "I was afraid for us. I don't want any one of us getting hurt or anything." Godt was smiling fondly to Copter. "Come here." Godt would open his arm and ask Copter to come close to sleep on his arm, cuddling with him. Copter would look into Godt eyes for a while before slowly coming closer to Godt, and in no time, he was already in those sturdy arms of Godt.

"Cop, every one of us was actually aware of those risks that we might or might not encounter. But every one of us understands that everything we did right now was something that we need to do to stop those things from happening again to anyone else, and especially you. It's good to feel afraid, it means you care. But don't let that feeling eating you, but just like what you did all this times, you fight that feelings. But I want you to remember one thing, Cop, that now you have me, here, right beside you. Please never forget that, Cop."

Cop will just hug the guy tighter so that he could feel the heat from Godt's body to warm his up, physically and mentally. "Thank you Godt, for coming to me out of nowhere. You were like some star, falling down right on me that was blinded me with your brightest light at the first hit, making me scared. But when I took a little time, your light had actually makes me see things clearer than ever. After P'Kim was gone, and before you came, life and death seems no difference to me. If pa wasn't around, I could have died together with P'Kim, life without him was so empty. But I know, even if I follow P'Kim to death, he will chased me back, because he was just like that. That's why I keep on living soulless every day. Even to breathe was something hard for me to do. Then you came with all the lights, you gave me strength and hope, which was long gone. Thank you for all of that, Godt."

Godt would just listened to every single things Copter would tell him. It was the first time the dimple guy was talking about his real feelings without even Godt had asked him first. He could feel Copter was slowly getting comfortable with him and that makes him really happy. He would just let Copter cry his heart out while he keeps patting the back of the petite guy and whispering sweet nothings on his ear to calm him down. He cherished every moment with the guy, sweet or miserable, happy or depressed, contented or sad. Every moment with Copter was meaningful and that was he needed in his life, everything else comes after.

"You were happy, I am glad to see you this happy, Cop." Weerawat was telling Copter when he could see his other son was smiling sweetly these days. The smile he missed for almost a year and was longing to see it. Copter who was actually feeding the old guy his late breakfast was stop midway between the bowl and the mouth while turning his head up to Weerawat. He would slowly put the spoon back in the bowl and put the bowl down on the bed. He was looking straight to the old guy he consider his father. "Am I being a bad husband to P'Kim, pa, to fall in love with another guy this fast?"

Weerawat was smiling while shaking his head slowly. "No, Copter. If anything, he will feel like what I feel right now, happy seeing you happy. You know your P'Kim well, Cop. The moment you came into his life, what important to him was your happiness. It doesn't change even your happiness with someone else. Who knows, maybe even that guy was sent by your P'Kim to save you from your own misery, that you caged yourself in. You don't know how much I hate myself whenever I see you, Cop. I'm the reason my son was dead, and I'm the reason you lose your husband. Despite that, I would make your life even more difficult with this condition of mine. Thank you Cop for never abandoned me and I'm sorry you had to suffer because of me."

Copter was hugging the sobbing mess Weerawat right after he was finished his words. "No, pa. Please don't think that way. To me, the moment P'Kim had accepted me, you were my pa too. I will never abandoned my own father, and you will always be with me. Don't you ever think you were a burden to me, because to me you were a father, not something called burden."

End of Chapter 31