Her Darkest Secrets

26: No Sex Allowed

*Warning: Mature Content*

"Don't look at me like that." Growled Riddian.

I smirked. "Or what?" I was bating him on purpose. Would he finally relax and let his instincts take over?

Then he grabbed me and tossed me on the bed like I weighed practically nothing. He straddled me and pinned my wrists above my head with only one of his hands. My breathing became heavier and my chest would rise and fall with each inhale and exhale. Riddian kissed me deeply and ran his tongue along my bottom lip, teasing me. I couldn't help but giggle in response.

"You think this is funny?" He asked while squeezing my wrists tighter. It hurt a little, but I didn't mind.

"I know you want me." Biting my lip I squirmed beneath his body.

"Oh really?" Riddian pulled up my tank top, exposing my breasts. I gasped as he placed his mouth around my boob and bit my nipple. His mouth was so warm and all my senses were on overdrive. At the same time as he was kissing my chest, he effortlessly slid his free hand inside my shorts and under panties. He touched me delicately at first but then started to explore me with his fingers. I could hear the sound of wetness as he touched between my legs.

"Looks like you're the one who wants me." He whispered in my ear before kissing me again. I could feel how hard he was inside his jeans as he was pressed against me. I wanted those pants off.

I couldn't move my hands though. Why wouldn't he let me touch him? I enjoyed being bottom as much as the next girl, but didn't he want to be satisfied too?

"Riddian." I said as seriously as I could while trying to control my body from wriggling beneath his touch.

When he looked at me I could tell he knew what I wanted. It had to have been obvious. What he did next was not what I expected, but definitely unforgettable. Riddian added another finger inside me and managed to also rub me with his thumb while thrusting his fingers in and out. He started slow and I felt as if I could hardly breath.

"Oh my god." I moaned as he started moving faster and faster. I started to feel the warmth inside me build and I screamed as quietly as possible once the release finally hit. My body was shaking in euphoria as I came down from the high.

Instead of immediately moving away from me, Riddian removed his hand and released my wrists. He laid down next to me and pulled me so my head was resting on his chest as I continued to regulate my breathing.

 "What was that?" I managed to ask.

"I told you I wasn't going to have sex with you." He replied simply.

"What difference would that have made?" I was beyond frustrated so I rolled on my back and stared at the ceiling.

"Sex makes everything different." I could feel him turn his head to look at me but I remained where I was. "Fooling around with me is one thing, but if we actually went all the way, how could you forgive yourself?"

I looked at him finally and realized he was being completely sincere. He really didn't want to ruin what I had with Nova. Was sex with him going to be that great that I chose him over her? No. It wasn't that simple.

"Y'know, this just makes me more confused than before." Admittedly I still had strong feelings for both of them. We laid there in silence the rest of the night, not speaking a word. I didn't know what to say and I'm guessing he didn't either. I just had the most hot and intense experience with Riddian but the passion and deep connection between Nova and I was undeniable.

Eventually we must had fallen asleep because I woke up to us cuddling under my blankets. Riddian was sleeping peacefully behind me with his arm around my waist. I could feel his hot breath against the back of my neck. I held his arm and squeezed it tighter. It felt good to have someone hold me the way he did. No matter what his past was, I could see the man he truly was. Riddian was someone who loved to help people and protect the weak at any cost to himself. He was kind of like a hero vigilante.

I closed my eyes for a little while longer, not wanting to wake up Riddian. When I opened them Nova was standing at the doorway staring at us. My entire body tensed and I know she saw the instant guilt on my face. 

She held her finger up to her lips as if to tell me to be quiet and approached my side of the bed. I watched in horror as she kneeled down to my level. I couldn't move at all if I didn't want to wake Riddian. 

"Nova, I—" I started to whisper but she cut me off.

"Have you made a decision?" She whispered back.

"No. I'm sorry. I want you both." This was it. The moment of truth. Was this the end of Nova and I?

"That's what I thought." I could see her gaze on Riddian as he was still sound asleep behind me. "Hey." Nova spoke in her normal volume and it startled me. "Hey!" She said louder, making Riddian flinch awake.

"Shit." He sat up quick and pushed himself away from me. "Nova, I can explain." It was strange to see Riddian act panicked, but then again I'd be terrified If I were him too.

"Don't freak out. I just came to talk." Nova said. I sat up as well and waited curiously for Nova to speak. Nothing in my head said this was going to go well.