it was announced to the public today
that mark had killed himself
that's the first time i've said that out loud
i couldn't bring myself to
i don't want to admit that he's gone
and that i could've done something about it
the doctors words keep replaying on my mind
"if he was found a few minutes earlier
he could've survived"
why didn't i go in earlier?
why didn't i check up on him?
why did i believe him when he said he was fine
when he so clearly wasn't?
why didn't i tell him how much he meant to me?
how much i wouldn't be able to deal if he left?
how much i loved him?
why was i such a coward?
why did you leave me?
how could you leave me?
not even a note
not even a fucking note
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look deeper | mark lee
Fanfictionif only you'd looked a bit deeper read between the lines slightly just glanced at his eyes for more than a second you would've been able to tell that he was falling apart inside..
