The doctors love

Chapter three

I dressed into a black long sleeve shirt with a blue highway skirt. I tied my hijab around my head and wedge, I applied faint make up and carried my shoulder bag and slipping my phone into it, I exited my room

I went downstairs and out of the house straight to my car. I drove straight to the café

Through the café glass, I saw Ridwan sitting down typing on his phone. How long has he been here?
Ignoring the drumming of my heart, I entered the café and went over to where he was

He glanced up at me with a raised eyebrow

"hey, are you waiting for someone?" I asked with a smile

"yeah though it seems she stood me up. I'll just get going" he stood up and started to leave when I held his hand but I let go immediately

"sorry. Something held me up" he smiled a myschevious smile and sat back down

"you look great. I could have done better myself"

I blush at his compliment "you look great too"

"promise?"

"promise. I don't lie"

He looked at me with a raised eyebrow "we all lie once in a while Zahra"

That's true but I simply let the topic go. We ordered and talked normally. It was fun and all and it's been long since I smiled this much. Laughed this much and it's a good thing. I didn't let my mind drift off to the fact that in less than 3 months, he'll be gone or tomorrow I'll be back to seeing dead bodies

After a lovely lunch, he paid and we went out of the café to my car. I sat down in the drivers seat of the black venza and brought out my car keys
"see you at work tomorrow Zahra" he paused for a moment "I had fun. Thanks for showing up"

With that he walked over to his car and entered. I closed my door and started the car and zoomed off. I had fun too Ridwan.

I entered the house and as usual silence greeted me. I went up to my room and changed into something free and laid down on my bed with a cool drink. I was smiling like a love sick puppy. Tomorrow is another day and inshaAllah I am gonna see Ridwan again... I can't wait.

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I looked at the body lying lifeless before me and I felt my heart in my throat. It hurts. I don't think I'll ever get over it

I picked up the white sheet and covered the patients lifeless face and a tear escaped from my eyes. One drop. Then another and more. They wheeled the patient out and I walked out cleaning my tears or trying to

This patient is a 3 years old girl and it hurts soo much. I passed the well lit corridor not paying attention to where I was but where I was going. I'm planning on signing out early today

"Zahra?!" a familiar voice called but I ignored it. I don't want Rid to see me like this. This vulnerable

"Zahra?!" he called again standing in front of me making me stop in my tracks. He is the last person I want to see me like this

I avoided his eyes and instead looked down "Zahra?" he raised my chin making me look up. His face changed immediately

"what's wrong Zahra?" he asked. I ignored him "please talk to me" the pain visible in his voice and he looked worried. I see the trust I've developed this past weeks and the love

"nothing Rid. I need to go"

He paused for a moment then said "it has to do with the death of that kid right?" I looked away "please Zahra trust me" talk about desperation
I decided to trust him "yes Ridwan. It is. I've answered you. Can I please go now?"

He walked away. So much for being there for me. I went to my office and laid my head on my desk

A few minutes passed in silence and mute sobs when the door flung open. I laizily raised my head and looked up at the intruder. I could have guessed. Ridwan. Just great. First he walks away then he comes to my office and interrupts my sob session

"come with me" I didn't attempt to stand up "please" I signed and stood up then removed the white doctors coat and grabbed my phone, shoulder bag and keys then cleared up and followed him. Luckily. I didn't bring my car

We entered his car and he drove off. Through out the ride, my eyes were closed and we didn't speak
"Zahra, Zahra, Zahra"

"hmm?" I asked opening my eyes
"we are here" I looked ahead and all I could see was the calm river. Charles river but what are we doing here?. I gave him a puzzled expression and he smiled and handed me a cool frappe then got down and opened my door for me. Still puzzled, I came down, the wind is cool and snow is likely to fall anyday now

"what are we doing here?" I asked as I sat on the picnic rug he had set up. It's almost sunset

"to calm your mind" he replied avoiding eye contact with me

"why?"

"because.... I'll do anything to keep the smile on your face and also because I hate seeing you cry. You look beautiful when you smile"

My cheeks flamed up and I turned my face away from him "quit joking around Rid"

He made me look at him "I'm not joking Zahra"

I couldn't breathe. Couldn't talk. A thousand emotions going on around my heart but the most clear of all is... Love. I'm in love with Rid. I finally found the strength to look away from him "you know, I'm going to London tomorrow inshaAllah. I'm not sure when I'm gonna be back" it caused my heart to deflate. I'm gonna miss him
"I thought you were gonna be here till December ending?" I asked looking at the river

"I was. No I am but something came up in one of my hospitals" he replied. He was silent for a while

After that we had a little conversation then he took me home "bye Zahra!"
I smiled, a sad, tight smile "bye Rid!"