Meant To Be

The Soft Breeze

"Night is a time of rigor, but also of mercy. There are truths which one can see only when it's dark."

― Isaac Bashevis Singer

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Gulf opened his eyes slowly when he heard few knocks on the door.

"Hey? Can I come in?" He heard Mew asking from the other side of the door but he closed his eyes again, not even moving as he kept laying on bed like that.He was still clothed, didn't take a bath, didn't get under the covers, he was just laying there like that.

Mew opened the door quietly and sighed, but Gulf still didn't turn around or say anything.

"I'm sorry." Mew said and it caused Gulf to open his eyes, but he was still not facing the older.The room was now darker and he saw the moonlight coming from outside, they were on the 15th floor of a building so it felt like Gulf could actually reach the moon.

"I'm sorry I—I don't know what I was thinking." Mew kept talking in a low tone, Gulf was still looking at the moon and not moving as the older sounded really uneasy. "I shouldn't have say those things, I shouldn't have—think them." He said, he was being completely honest cause after his parents left he realized that he was actually acting like his parents, and he didn't like it.For all this time he blamed everyone who were responsible for Area C, but he really said all those things to Gulf in the car.

"It's...-- you don't have to do anything for anyone, I'm sorry." He repeated, but Gulf wasn't really interested.His mind was too messed up to make a talk or actually sit down and think.

"I will find a way for the abortion."

Gulf blinked for few times before turning his face to the man, quickly getting straightened up.

"What?" He asked, his voice coming out really hoarse.

"I was..---I don't know what I was thinking, I never liked these kind of people and I actually tried to do the same to you..I..—" He sighed, Gulf saw how displeased he seemed and he kept looking at the man when Mew crouched down in front of the bed and looked back at him.

"I meant it when I said we can be friends." He said after a while. "I will help you with the abortion."

"But—" Gulf furrowed his eyebrows. "—They won't let me—"

"You will tell them that I forced you."

"What?" Gulf got even more confused.

"Look—I can help you about the abortion, you can have the operation secretly but they will eventually learn it and they will punish you for that.If we make a story which I'm the one who doesn't want the baby, it will be fine." He looked at younger. "At least you will have some time to...prepare yourself---your mindset—anything." He shook his head. "You don't want it right now, you are not ready."

Gulf just kept staring at him, he could understand what Mew meant.If he would have an abortion with a fake story like that, they would just put him back in the Area C and just like Mew said he could have a proper match and more time to get himself ready.Not getting raped and almost killing himself like this.

"But..." Gulf mumbled after some time, it seemed like they were both just thinking and it was all quiet.

"Let's just—" Mew suddenly stood up and patted on younger's arm gently. "—take you to your mom."