Chasing After You

Chapter 32

Chapter 32

Confused

Kahit lubos na naguguluhan ay tumayo rin ako at mabilis siyang hinabol. He exited in a different direction. Sa itsura'y mukhang ito ang garden area ng hotel.

"What the hell are you doing, Beau Patrick? Anong palabas 'to?!" I shouted. My tears are starting to flow down my face. "It's our anniversary. Why are you being like this? Stop joking around! It's not funny!"

I am so mad at him right now. Ano bang pakulo ang ginagawa niya? Hindi na nakakatuwa!

Hinarap niya ako. I can see his eyes right now... It's all blank. There is no remorse.

Bakit siya ganyan? Ano ba ang nangyayari? Hindi ko lubos na maintindihan.

"Like what I've said, I'm not joking. Hiwalay na tayong dalawa. Ayaw ko na. Ano ba ang hindi malinaw sa'yo?" nagulat ako sa tono ng pananalita niya.

Tila ba may punyal na unti-unting bumabaon dito sa puso ko.

What happened to my Beau?

"Marami!" sigaw ko ulit. "Hindi kita maintindihan! Why are you breaking up with me? At ngayon pang anniversary natin?! Anong problema?"

I am crying. And it seems like he doesn't even care... It breaks me so much. Naninikip ang dibdib ko at gulong-gulo ang utak ko.

"Bigla ko lang na-realized na pagod na ako sa relasyong 'to... Na ayoko na." diretsong sabi niya. Walang pag-aalinlangan iyon kaya mas lalong naninikip ang puso ko.

"You can't say that... Y-you can't, Beau. Maayos pa tayo kagabi lang! Binati mo pa ako! You said that you love me... And you will always love me. P-pero bakit biglang ganyan ka?" I said, my voice is shaking.

Pakiramdam ko ay hulas na ang make up ko dahil sa pag-iyak. Napupuno ng luha ang aking mga mata.

This can't be happening! There's no any sign. We are all okay and suddenly it comes down to this? I couldn't find any reasons in my mind at all!

Saan ako nagkamali? Saan ako nagkulang?

"I'm sorry, Thea." maikling sabi niya na mas lalong nagpagalit pa sa akin.

"Hindi mo na ba ako mahal?" I asked like my whole heart is depending on it. Kabadong-kabado sa maaaring isagot niya. "Sagutin mo 'ko!"

He looked at me with bloodshot eyes. "Mahal."

Ikinalma nito ang nagwawala kong puso ngunit ang sakit ay hindi manlang naghilom.

"Pero tama na. Mahal kita pero tama na." dugtong niya na siyang pumatay sa katiting na pag-asa.

Naramdaman ko ang panghihina ng aking mga tuhod. Everything suddenly falls apart.

"I-I don't understand..." nauutal kong sabi.

I just can't. There's no way I would. It's very hard to understand!

He took a deep breath.

"We can love each other without owning each other. Our story doesn't need a next chapter. Let's just end it as a tragedy with a closure." he said. "Please forget about me, Theandra."

He walked away, leaving me there, all alone, with my heart shattered into a million pieces.

I went home, still confused about everything. I checked my phone and tried sending him a text message but it did not get through, he blocked my number. He blocked me through everything.

Napapikit ako sabay iyak.

Hindi ko talaga naiintindihan. Hindi niya manlang ipinaintindi sa akin. Kahit iyon na lang sana.