Doctors' Order (Completed) [R-18]

1 : After Sex Glow

April 16, 2020

The moment I opened my eyes, I saw you. You don't know how just made my morning one of my bests, Dr. Ibarra. I love you always.

- Janine Boromeo

-----

Janine

Oh god! Sa mga napapanood ko naman sa mga teleserye, sa umaga pagkatapos mong makipagsex sa isang lalaki ay hindi mo na ito maabutan pang tulog sa kama kasama ka. Pero bakit kay Dr. Ibarra iba? He's still on bed with me and perfectly tangled in my sheets.

" Good morning Baby" He whispered before kissing me on the lips. Napaupo ako sa may gilid ng kama habang sinusuot ang bra at panty ko na pinulot ko lang sa may paanan ng kama. Siya naman ay sinuot na din ang kaniyang boxer.

Agad na naalarma iyung systema ko ng mahagilap ng mga mata ko iyung pink na notebook ko. Agad akong tumayo at kinuha ito.

" Ano iyan?" Tanong niya sa akin. Umiling ako.

" Wala 'to. Just my notes. Patients' cases. Private matters. Why?" Oh shit! He can't read it. There's no way he read it last night or this morning. Tulog na tulog siya kagabi at kaninang madaling araw para pagkainteresan 'tong notebook ko.

" Okay. Sabi mo eh" Iling lang niya bago isinuot ang tshirt niya

" Did you read this?" Iba kase ang tono ng boses niya.

Wala na akong mukhang ihaharap sa kaniya kung sakali mang nabasa niya ang lahat ng mga sinulat ko dito. Ang tapang tapang kong isulat lahat ng gusto kong sabihin sa kaniya pero wala akong lakas ng loob na sabihin ng harap harapan sa kaniya.

" I didn't. Do I look like someone who's lying? Ano ba kaseng sinulat mo diyan? Is it somehow important? Does it concern me? Do I need to read it? Or I should really read it?" What the heck is he saying? Pati ako ay naguguluhan na din sa sinasabi niya. Ano bang gusto niyang ipahiwatig sa akin?

" No. It's not that important to you but it is to me. And you don't need to read it." Okay Ja, hindi niya nabasa. Dahil kung nabasa niya tiyak na sasabihin niya sa akin. He would confront me instead of going around the bush.

" Okay. I won't. I like the color though. And the cartoon character. Powerpuffgirls. Very Janine" I rolled my eyes at what he just said.

Huminga ako ng malalim. Okay Ja, eto na iyun.

" About last night-" Naputol ang kung anumang sasabihin ko sana ng magsalita siya

" Last night was me loving you. Last night was me telling you that I love you still and that I have never loved a woman after you. Kung si Dra. Flores ang iniisip mo ngayon ay gusto kong panatagin ka na walang kami. She offered me friendship, tinanggap ko noon dahil ang alam ko ay pagkakaibigan lang talaga ang gusto niya. She told me she loves me, but I don't love her. Hindi niya puwedeng mahalin ang isang taong may mahal paring iba. She told me she's willing to wait but I declined her of it not because I am not yet ready for another relationship but because I don't know if I could still get over you. I chose not to, Ja. Dahil hindi ko kaya. Let's get back together, Ja. Let's make everything right. Hindi pa naman huli ang lahat diba?" Chance was all over his face.

I so love this man

Lumapit ako sa kaniya at niyakap siya ng mahigpit.

" I'm sorry, Carlo. Akala ko kase may iba ka na. I really thought you were in a relationship with her. I should have confronted you about this but thinking of what I did to you stops me everytime I wanted to do so. Gusto ko lang sabihin sa 'yo na I'm sorry. I'm sorry because I know I no longer should have no right to love you but I still do. 'Tong puso ko, ikaw parin ang mahal. I never had given any one a chance after the break up. Masyado kitang mahal para ipagpalit sa iba. I always tell myself to move on. But everytime I try, I realize that I'm wasting time, effort and everything because I cannot move on. I refuse to move on. Hindi ako puwedeng magmove sa 'yo dahil hindi ko puwedeng itapon ang pagmamahal na meron ako para sa 'yo. The moment I lost you was the moment I realize that I lost everything. Na wala palang silbi ang lahat ng pinagpaguran ko kung wala ka na sa akin. Walang silbi ang posisyon na meron ako ngayon kung ikaw din lang ang kapalit nito. If only I could bring back time Ibarra, I would choose you. And I'd do it all over again if I had the chance. Kung papipiliin ako muli, hindi na ako magdadalawang isip pa na piliin ka. This time, it's going to be you on top of everything. I miss you, Carlo. I really do" We hugged like there's no tomorrow.