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Josh (help me)

I just want to put a ⚠️trigger warning ⚠️ this story includes mentions of self harm and suicidal thoughts , if you feel this way you are not alone and ik it's hard but try and seek help please you deserve to be here just as much as anyone else 💕🥺

Y/n (pov)
You are ugly,fat,annoying,try hard ,clout chaser I get those comments like 2-3 million times a day all because I'm dating someone who has a fan base of girls who will stop at nothing to tear you down and make you feel worthless. Josh was out with his friends today whilst I was at home cause I couldn't be bothered plus Saturdays for the boys and then *ding* message on Instagram "you should kill yourself!" *ding* "no one loves you" *ding* "you're using josh you skank!" *ding* "ugly bitch you don't deserve josh" *ding* "die already" I couldn't take anymore I threw my phone on the wall and fell on my knees crying until I remembered where the box cutter was and I went to grab it
⚠️trigger warning⚠️
I kept repeating the messages every time I cut more lines on my arms and I watched the blood fall on the floor but that didn't stop me it was when I heard the front door open and I heard voices and I realised josh had brung his friends over (kio,Anthony,jaden,Bryce etc.) I panicked and put the box cutter under my pillow it still had blood on it but I didn't have time to clean it up and I was crying so my eyes were puffy and red and josh knew when I was lying I also needed to hide my cuts so I grabbed a quick hoodie from josh's wardrobe and I'll tell him I watched the notebook
Josh (pov)
I walked in with my boys and something didn't feel right and then I saw y/n's phone smashed a bit but not completely broken and as I picked it up I could just about make out what was in the screen it was messages telling her bullshit that wasn't true I immediately panicked because I couldn't hear anything in the house and I started shouting on her
Josh: y/n! Y/n!
I went upstairs and by this point the boys had got a brief explanation about the situation so they were trying to help me find her as I made my way across the landing I heard something

Y/n (pov)
As I was trying to get the tv on to make it look like I had actually watched the notebook I heard josh screaming for my name along with the other boys then I heard him open the door and I immediately pretended to sleep and instead of josh "waking me up" he gave me a hug to which "I woke up to" then the boys came in as well and they looked worried I was confused so I asked all the boys why they were so worried

Y/n: why were yous all so worried?
Kio: we saw your phone y/n
*my heart sank*  *josh eyes watered*
Y/n: josh? Are you ok
Josh: me? yea I was just worried you would over think it and do something else

After a while all the boys left after giving me reassurance that the messages were not true!
Me and josh were cuddling when josh realised I needed to get changed for bed and I panicked and told him I'd pick something out in a second and I left to use the bathroom , when I got back I heard sniffling and I went in and saw josh holding the box cutter

Y/n: I- I can explain *voice cracking*

Josh just ran up to me and gave me and huge hug whilst we were both crying then he asked to show him what I had done so I pulled my sleeves up to show him my arms which only made him cry even more
Y/n: josh I'm so sorry I never meant to make you cry
Josh: no y/n I'm sorry people are saying stuff like that to you I'll talk to them ok cause it's not fair on you :(

We got changed and cuddled in bed and eventually falling asleep

A/n~ sorry this one is so long but I'm really proud of this one and I'm deeply sorry if you had to deal with mental health issues and if you're currently dealing with them please seek help or if you've got help maybe we could help educate others the seriousness of mental health 🥺💕 stay safe