Falling For My Bully

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(Kians' POV)

A week has passed by since I've last seen Alexis. I do miss her, but I've come to the same realization over and over. Everything I do hurts her in a way, or puts her heart in a horrible place.

I was listening to Frank Ocean, when I get a text. 

"Holy shit.." I mumbled, not knowing how to feel

It was Alexis, I was surprised she even reached out to me. It's weird it always seems as though she's the one reaching out. It means she cares obviously, but why? All I do is bring her pain.

(A: Alexis)

A: Hey Kian, I haven't seen you since the last time you stopped by the hospital! Anyways, I just wanted to tell you I've been released, and I want to talk to you. I've been thinking about you nonstop, and I just want to make it right. Please let me know your thoughts. Stay safe

Before replying, I wanted to get my head in the clear. This whole time I've been thinking about Alexis, but her without me. I want to be with her, but maybe it's the right person wrong time type situation. 

"Fuck, what do I do?" I asked, when suddenly Jc comes in. Loud like always.

"Hey dude! How are you? I haven't seen you around lately" he asked, he seemed concerned, but he knew why I've been ghosting everyone

"Dude, Lexi texted me." I replied

"Lexi? Who the hell is that?" He asked while coming to sit next to me on the couch

"Alexis, dumbass. I don't know why I suddenly gave her a nickname-" I got cut off by him laughing

"Lexi? Bro, you can call her that when she's your girl" He said

I looked at him. What does he mean? Does he think I still have a chance with her? If so, why? 

"Jc, all I've been doing is hurting her, do you think I should be with her? She wants to talk to me, but what if in the end it just brings her pain. I hate knowing I cause it. I want her to be with someone that treats her the way she deserves to be treated." I kept looking down at my feet, usually I don't go all simp over a girl, but Alexis..she really got my heart in a knot. I've never been so confused and stuck in my life.

Jc looked at me and sighed

"Kian, relationships aren't always easy. Sure, you guys got off on the wrong foot, but why does all this matter when she's proven time and time again that she wants to be with you?" Jc asked

He did have a point, I think even I was scared to admit it. 

"You're right,  I think I'm gonna go visit her. She finally got released from the hospital. This conversation should be tonight."

(Alexis' POV)

I'm finally going home, it feels like it's been months, but in reality it's been 2 weeks. Shit, close enough. I was in the car and my heart ached. I wondered why Kian left me hanging for the last week of me being in the hospital. Should I text him saying I was released? No, maybe, I don't know. If he wanted to he would, right? People make time for things and people they care about. and not once did he text me or check in on me, except for the last time...and we all know how that went. 

"Mom?" I wanted to get her opinion, if I should text Kian or not.

"Yes Ali?" She hasn't called me that since I was 12, but it felt somewhat nice actually. Everything was finally going okay for me

"Should I text Kian?" I asked, I turned to her

"I think it would be nice to let him know that you're okay, and you finally got released. He was pretty concerned for you." She replied with a smile