TOXIC
TOXIC
TOXIC
TOXIC
"angel nice to see you here" Mattia said as she walked into his fathers restaurant
"hello mattia" she smiled at him
"what may i help you with today" he asked her before looking at the beautiful girl
"i just came for a table of 1" she smiled at him before looking around the restaurant
He guided her to a table of 2
She sat down started looking at the menu
She soon saw mattia come over to her table and sit in front of her
"you're too beautiful to be sitting here alone"
She signed
"mattia please.. i dated ale"
"ale is in love with veronica.. he's always been"
"that doesn't make us right"
"but it does" he said as he tucks a piece of hair behind her ear
She sighs before he speaks again
"he has never wanted you.. he only wants her why can't you understand that. I'm the one who wants you not him"
"mattia please"
"Think about it" he said before getting up and returned to his shift
by this time she had lost her appetite
She got in her car and went home
Tears rolled down her cheeks as she walked up stairs to her room.
She laid on her bed
letting everything go
She was the oldest from her siblings
The oldest daughter
so she felt it was her job to be strong
She never showed her emotions
Each time she loses herself
She remembers the night where she finally let someone see her break
"he cheated on me" she said looking up at mattia and he pulled her into a hug but she didn't hug back.
"it's okay to cry"
"yeah but i'm not gonna.. i just have to pick myself up and keep going" she said before pushing his hug away.
after 3 years of being with someone you'd think you know someone
She went home later on that night and sat on a stool by the bar in her kitchen
Hours passed and no tears went down her eyes
Until it was 2:45 and she heard a knock
The maid opened the door and it was mattia
Mattia sat next to her
and she quickly cried in his shoulder
she couldn't breathe
the pain took over her
she cried till she threw up
that didn't stop her from crying
she cried even more
She sat next to the toilet as he rubbed her stomach
she couldn't feel anything
"why would he do that to me"
"he's always been like that and you knew it"
"i just thought i could change him" she said looking at mattia and he sighed
"i should've known"
She heard a knock on her bedroom door and quickly wiped her tears and opened the door.
"mattia..please"
He didn't say anything he just kissed her
She let him in and locked the door like it was before
"why are you scared to love me"
"because mattia we're too much a like.. even though we'd never admit it "
"That night that i went to your house at 2:45 am and we kissed you couldn't tell me that you didn't feel anything. Look me in my face and tell me you didn't feel something for me. Look into that deep heart of yours and tell me"
"Mattia i may be cold hearted but you're forgetting you're worse than me"
"answer my question"
Before she could answer her question there was another knock
She opened the door and saw ale
and quickly closed it and locked it
"go ahead.. tell him . Tell your best friend how you like the girl he broke" she said again opening the door and ale and mattia were met face to face.
"tell me what"
"that me and her are in love with eachother.. we're not gonna let you get in the way" mattia said and she quickly turned to look at him
She slammed the door shut in ales face
"what the fuck is your problem"
"kiss me.. and look me in the eyes and tell
me you don't feel anything"
"mattia you're crazy" she said before he smashed his lips on hers.
Next thing you know they were cuddling on the bed
Her head on his chest and his head on the pillow, his arms around her waist
With a blanket ontop of them
They knew by tomorrow what they were doing wasn't gonna be talked about.
It hurt her
It hurt him
He thinks she doesn't want anyone to know about him
She thinks he doesn't want anyone to know about her
He knew about all her problems
Her daddy issues
her depression
her eating disorder
he knew she felt numb
her abandonment issues
she knew about his
His depression
his family problems
his money problems
His feelings he never told anyone
