Finally (Lapidot Sequel to Anxiety)

Get Out

Peridot's POV

I'm such a fucking idiot. I shouldn't have let her back into my life. Not after every thing she did to me. "Peridot wait!" I heard Lapis yell, trying to get me to look at her again. "Get out." I said coldly. I don't have the strength to deal with her. There was a silence. "Peri, please." I heard Lapis say, quieter this time. This hurt to much. How many times will she mess with my feelings? "Don't call me that." I said, turning around to face her. She looked so sad, but I wasn't going to let her get to me. Not after everything she did to me.

"Peridot, I'm sorry." Lapis said staring down at me. Sorry? She's sorry? "Sorry won't fucking cut it, now get out of my house!" I yelled staring daggers into her. "Peridot, please don't leave me, I love you Peridot." She said. That doesn't even sound sincere. "Y'know Lapis, maybe I did love you, but now i'm not as blind as I used to be, I don't ever want to see you again." I said, I turned around and started walking to my dresser. If she wouldn't leave then I will. I suddenly felt two arms grab my shoulders, pull me back and keep me in a tight embrace.

Lapis' arms slid down and wrapped around my waist like her life depended on it. Sure I was startled but I didn't flinch I just stood there like an idiot. "Let... Let go of me." I said struggling in her grip. Silence. The more I struggled the tighter her grip got. "I don't need this right now let me go!" I said a little louder this time. Silence again. I struggled more. She can't hold on foreve-"Peridot." I froze. "Please... please don't leave me." I stayed silent. "I know I have been nothing but horrible to you, and I hate myself for it, but please don't shut me out. Please don't hate me." I stayed silent. Wait what am I doing? I started struggling again. "Peridot. Your the one good thing that has happened to me in this shit filled life." That's when I broke.

I let tear after tear flow from my eyes. I haven't let myself cry like this in ages. I lowered myself down on the floor, Lapis with me. "Please let go." I stifled through sobs. She did what I told. I took this chance to try and steady my breathing. God why am I so weak? I stared up at the ceiling. What now?

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Hey guys! I hope you enjoyed this chapter.

So so sorry for the hella long break.

I will try me best to continue updating this one while also updating my latest one.

Anyway I hope you guys have an amazing rest of you day.

~IcyQueer

P.S. so sorry of the short chapter a lot of shit has been going on in my life