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Anthony Alsina

I was really going through it right now, the depression is killing me

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I was really going through it right now, the depression is killing me. In public places I have to walk around with sunglasses cause I look dead, I've gotten skinner. I don't know what was really going on, but probably cause i haven't took my depressants. After Katherine broke up with me, it did fucked me up. But I have to take responsibility of my consequences. Then throwing the bomb of her being pregnant, I am happy. But it was a lot of emotions going through my head at once.

A couple months ago, I've stayed home and not gone out at all which caused me to loose one of my tattoo shops. I was devastated, I put so much money into the shop and then I lost it in a blink of an eye. The shop, I would pay someone to use the space and build my shop in it. And since I haven't opened it, and wasn't paying bills.

"You need to get your ass up, and do something" My mother walked in opening the blinds "I'm sick and tired of you acting like this, get up, go take care of business Anthony. You have a child coming into this world in a few days and this is what you're doing" she said with crossed arms

"It's hard mom, when you're battling with a lot" I spoke looking at her

"I know Anthony, but take it a day at a time" she said sitting on my bed "Take a nice bath, go to the shop, go do something you love and most importantly take your depressants" she told me kissing my head and walking out.

I sigh really hard getting up walking to my bathroom. I hated depression, it's like you feel so unmotivated most of the time like you didn't want to do anything, worthless. I just felt like shit but I need to wake up and realize that I have a daughter that's looks up to me and a son on the way.

*

I walked inside my tattoo shop and they all were happy to see me. My assistant Skylar was holding it down by keeping it together while I was going through some demons. I really need to realize that it's time for a new beginning for me.

"We missed you around" Skylar said and everyone agreed "So where the second shop opening?"

"I lost it, but I'll be opening another one in a couple of months. When I get my mind right" I said pulling out a ringing phone seeing it's my mother

"Hello" I said walking to the back

"Anthony! Katherine is in labor" she said and I pace back and forth, because the baby came a few days early "we need to leave now!" She hung up the phone

I walked back to the front, "I need to get to cali, I'll be back soon. You got the shop covered?" I asked

"I gotchu boss, congrats" I thanked them walking to my car, driving to my moms seeing her outside with her bags

"Go pack your bags, we don't have time. The flight leaves in two hours" she said putting her bag in the car and I nodded putting the car in park and going inside.

*

We landed two hours ago, we currently at the hospital. I walked back into the room holding a cup of ice for Katherine.

"Here" I said passing her the cup, she gave me a weak smile

"Thanks" she grabbed it, eating the ice slowly

I sat on the couch next to Sean asleep, Hennessy was typing her fingers away on her laptop and Delilah watching tv along with my mother.

"I think it's time" Katherine said grunting, "It starting to hu-" she let out a scream, that woke up Sean. My mother went to call the nurse, and  I got up grabbing her hand letting her know it's going to be okay.

"Breat-"

"SHUT UP" Katherine scream at me interrupting me, she didn't want to take any medications to ease the pain for her contractions. The doctor walked in, with two nurses

"Miss King it's time for you to deliver your prince" She nodded holding my hand tight

In the delivery room, it was only My mother, Hennessy, Delilah and me since Sean didn't want to see anything

"1...2...3...push" the doctor instructed, Katherine did a big push crying

"I-I can't do it" she cried, I leveled my head to hers and whispered

"Yes you can, you almost there" she slowly nodded, and gave one last push

Baby cries filled the room, and I looked at Katherine who was crying.

"Dad, want to cut the umbilical cord?" I nodded, grabbing the scissors and cutting it.

One of the nurse placed the baby on Katherine chest so they can have a skin to skin

"What are you guys naming him?" The nurse asked I looked at Katherine. We have talked about names, but never decided on one

"Karter Alsina" Katherine said looking at me and I nodded with a smile

"Karter Alsina" I repeated

I was beyond excited to be having a boy, I called my daughter so she can see her baby brother who was really excited to meet him. Which I hope she will be soon.

Everyone join afterwards, we chilled in the hospital room. Until Katherine fell asleep, they left and I stayed behind to keep her some company.

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