Harleen

Revelation

" Babe, there's something I need to tell you, but I think it's better if you come around so I can tell you in person"

" What's so important you can't tell me over the phone?"

" I feel something as big as this and just not telling you in person is highly disrespectful and inappropriate towards you. Please come over, it's been a while since we last saw each other. Besides, you're the executive vice president of Wayne Enterprises and it's almost lunchtime. Surely you can spare at least a half-hour with me, Derek"

" Yeah, alright. It has been a while hasn't it? I'm on my way"

" Ok, cool. Love you, babe"

" Love you too"

Harleen ends the phone conversation and lays the phone down on her dining table. She sighed with relief knowing not only she finally managed to get through to Derek but he has agreed to come around and talk with her soon. However, the feeling of relief vanishes and in its place is that nagging fear of losing Derek, when she tells him she kissed Arthur Fleck

There is no way she could not come clean about this, not with the amount of respect, love, and somewhat loyalty to her boyfriend. Harleen has to tell Derek the truth because otherwise, her guilt would continue to eat away at him and her possibly developing insomnia as a result of keeping her affair a secret

If I do end up losing Derek after telling him, then so be it. I may still feel like shit but at least I didn't hold any secrets back from him, thought Harleen as she grabbed her second cup of coffee, brings the mug to her lips and lightly sips on it

After having a disastrous night of no sleep, Harleen is going to need a lot of energy to not only get herself through today but also when Derek arrives and tells him the truth. She still hated how she easily allowed herself to give in to Arthur's advances, encouraging him even. She should have stood her ground and told the clown to back off, but she didn't and more importantly she enjoyed the contact

If anyone were to travel back to the past when Harleen was either starting college or still in high school and told her that she would fall in love with a schizophrenic while being in a relationship with another man, she would have told them they are liars and she would never do something like that. Plus at the time, she never thought she was worthy or deserving to be in a relationship and have a man love her anyway

But as the title of Frank Sinatra's song goes - That's life. Life can be going well for you one minute and it can go horribly wrong or strangely complex

Harleen sips on her coffee a little longer before finally putting her half-empty cup back down on her table and wiping her mouth while sitting at the table. While there it is a strong possibility and most likely scenario that Derek will leave her once she tells him about the kiss, Harleen does have hope where he may forgive her and continue their relationship

And if that is the case. What the hell is she going to do about Arthur and her feelings for him? Her feelings of Arthur are so strong that it could possibly eclipse her feelings for Derek and that's not how it should be, considering she's Arthur's doctor and is not suppose to have feelings for him or any of her patients in that nature

If Derek does forgive me and still wants to be with me, then I'll have no choice but to hand in my resignation to Mr. Johnson and leave Arthur in the lurch. I really don't want to do that because it will crush Arthur's spirit completely and who knows what will happen to him when I leave. But if this is the only way Derek will forgive me, then I'll do it, thought Harleen sorrowfully

Now the thought of actually abandoning Arthur for the sake of saving her relationship with Derek tugged at her heartstrings. Harleen can easily picture Arthur being heartbroken about the news, asking and demanding why she would do this him. He opened up to her and trusted her like no other, only to be told that she's ditching him and what they had together is based on a complete lie