Poems I Wrote

Not Again

I'm getting haunted by that feeling again

The feeling I always despised

The feeling I embraced back then

The feeling where my heart got diced

It's been years since this happened

It almost seems foreign to me now

I know soon enough my knees would bend

'Cause the process I know very well how

First you'll feel conscious whenever he's around

You'll double-check your appearance

And when he passes by you'll want to melt on the ground

Because his smile would leave you in a trance

Secondly, you'll constantly think of his image

You'll smile like an idiot out of the blue

You know you're screwed when you're at this stage

Girl, what the hell is wrong with you?

Thirdly, you begin to daydream in the middle of class

Don't expect good scores if you keep doing that, fool

Not paying attention; just letting the moment pass

Because "damn that boy looks so cool."

Lastly, your instincts warn you when a rival appears

Jealousy is such an annoying bitch

But do you have the right to be jealous, my foolish dears?

He's not yours so stop your glitch

It's funny when you say it like this

But when you go through it the humour's gone

It hurts when you like someone, right little miss?

It feels like you lost and at the same time won

I want to get rid of this nuisance of a feeling

If only it would disappear as quickly as seconds of ten

I don't want to end up on another one-sided liking

And damn it I won't fall in love - not again

- July 27, 2014