From Within The Shadow

Letting Go

Today I feel I've finally learnt

the art of letting go

and I find that I now feel

my life will just be so.

It may be so exciting,

it may just be so dull,

which can be seen in other ways

like a storm and then a lull.

I let go of expectations

quite a while ago

but letting go completely

took some time to know.

I thought that I had worked it out,

in some ways this was true,

although now I feel I kept some back

so I could sit and chew.

It was like a bit of gristle,

I'd chew it all the time.

It stopped me making new mistakes

and experiencing sublime.

The what ifs then

were kept in place,

it stopped me moving on.

I tried to kid myself I'd learnt,

yet it hadn't completely gone.

I went through all the motions,

I affirmed my own belief,

although actually experiencing it

has brought a great relief!

I knew I was still learning,

I thought it was lessons new.

I didn't realise how stuck I was

until today was nearly through.

I did a lot of re-discovering

about how I felt today,

there was a lot of repetition

where things had come to stay.

I realise now they are my fears,

dregs left from unions past.

I also see that there are no more fears,

they were indeed my last.

Some I'd picked up from others,

some I'd kept in case.

I thought that by keeping hold of them

I'd learn a bit of grace.

Now I realise I haven't,

well, maybe just a tad,

although now I know what's ahead of me,

my heart inside feels glad.