Cotton Candy Skies | Taegyu✔️

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T A E H Y U N

I feel tired

I've stayed awake for countless days

Just to be by your side

I didn't know when you were leaving

And I didn't want it to be when I was gone

I want to be with you until your last moments

I don't want to think of death as a possibility for you

But no matter how hard I wish

I can't ignore it

You'll have to leave sometime

I still feel guilty

That I didn't know about this sooner

I'm ignorant

I feel like at ignorant boyfriend

I feel you place your hand on top of mine

It's cold

It scares me

It's telling me that you're getting weaker and weaker

And I don't want to believe that

"Don't worry Hyunnie..."

Hyunnie

You never really given me a nickname before

This'll be my first time having one from you

And my last time hearing it

"It's like my mom said"

"It's only temporary"

You sent me a weak smile

Temporary....

Until you get better or until you die?

I hope it's the first choice

I'm really scared of losing you

"Don't worry..."

"You'll be okay..."

It sounds like I'm trying to convince myself more than you

I don't want to loose you...

It's 3am

You fell asleep

But I'm still awake

Its hard for me to sleep

Knowing that you could die at any moment

The thought of loosing you

I don't know what to feel anymore

All I can do is cry

Cry and pray

Pray for you to get better

A faint ringing echoes through the room

My heart drops as a thought comes to my mind

I rush towards your bead

You're not moving anymore....

"Beomgyu? Beomgyu!"

People rush in after hearing me scream

No..... I don't want to believe it....

Two of the doctors escort me outside

I look back into your crowed room

Beomgyu....

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