There were summers
of freshly beaten bruises.
Black and soft as rotten fruit.
Not quite two years old,
the child fell on toys.
Hand-shaped new age modern toys.
An angry child
she would hurt herself when mommy
wasn't looking.
Daddy was there
to blanket mommy in soft flannel
lies.
Daddy never did drugs.
He stayed up so late to watch the
candles burn
hours of wax dribbling delicate
tendrils on the beige carpet.
The child cried a lot when mommy
wasn't home.
She hit her head on that old coffee table.
Daddy didn't do it.
Only because daddy didn't remember
doing it.
But there was guilt in daddy's muddy
methamphetamine stare.
Mommy knew.
She remembered crying late at night
when he wouldn't get off her.
Mommy threw the blanket down.
The one daddy gave her.
Mommy wanted to die.
Mommy held the child until the sun
danced through the mini-blinds
and daddy was bleeding in the
bathtub.
Mommy doesn't think she can go on.
Mommy wants to lay her head down
and sleep for all eternity.
Mommy thinks she can only live
with herself,
in the third person.
DU LIEST GERADE
So I Don't Unravel: Poetry
PoesieJennifer White's poetry focuses on her own experiences as a wife and mother in rural Idaho. She broaches the topics of relationships, death, and her reflections on life.