month three is december. and it's been really hard. everyone has eachother and ive never felt so alone. somedays I truly do think of dying. it's been very often lately. but I know I won't. I don't know what's been hardest my past or facing the future but I'm still trying. lm trying because I know people are proud of how far I've come and because I know people truly want me here. and I'm doing it for them. I remember going to school each day coming in and crying and leaving early every day because of it. And I don't cry anymore. I cry at things that make me happy. I don't cry at things that make me sad. At my new school we learned something called a "s.o.s" and it stands for saying something positive about yourself. observe your surroundings. and self check. and it helps sometimes and sometimes you just have to bottle it in. and trying my hardest. I just want to make me proud of me
