TAQDEER(meant to be)

CHAPTER FOUR

Aabaan's POV

It was early in the morning when I come to the diner but forgot something in the car so I went to get it and suddenly she bumps into, more of we bumped into each other, her head was slow and she muttered and inaudible sorry without raising her head
"You?"I asked but she was quite
"You're just coming? "I said more of a question
"Anyways just get me a cup of espresso right away"I said to her and leave
But there's this uniqueness in her I haven't we n in many girls, she's not too obsessed with expensive and flashy things, not so inlove with materialistic stuffs her dress sense is quite amazing, she always have her button ups tuck into her pallazo pants or flare skirt with a matching veil tie Arabian style and a sneakers or canvas, her dress so simply yet classy and modest, she's so shy and naive,but her shyness is also so much that its not even islamically impressive and her response were always meek and inaudible, always fidgeting in her position when ever Shea in front of me,I have this feeling I've ever met her somewhere, those hazel brown eyes are so familiar but then she's scared of me, so scared that I can hear her pulse rate even when she's few meters away and see how much her blood flows through a rose tinted,and I know that's the effect I had on her, she's never on makeup yet she's still beautiful and I really can't seem to get her off my mind.
I left the diner to the company, yes, we own the Aabaan Aareef's building construction company so I often don't spend much at the diner
"You really need to stop hurting yourself over the past aby"Abbas my friend said
"Yeah I know but I really can't seem to get over my stupid actions, I haven't really gotten over my guilt, I shouldn't have... "
"Shhh, its okay"he cuts me off
"Its really not okay abs, she was just 15,I should have really listen to her whimper and wallow,I should have listen to her pleas but I was just so selfish and... "
"You weren't so selfish aby, beside you weren't on your senses, it was the effect of your emotions blend with alcohol controlling you then"
"It was my mistakes, I shouldn't have drank so much, I shouldn't have drank at all, my life feels like mess and I can't even find her to apologize "
I said in a sad tone amidst tears flowing freely from my eyes
"You really need to calm down, we'd go look for her so you can apologize and... "
"I not only want to apologize to her, if she can't forgive my mistakes, then I'd need to nikkah her and take her as my zawjah, maybe I can make up for my mistakes"
"I'm sorry bro,I know how terrible it feels living with ones guilty actions over what he could control"
I was quite, not able to reply
"You should try and stay calm for now, you need not to worry and ruin your happy days... "
"Happy days? What fucking happy days aby? Does the happy days really matters? I'm sure right now she's been living in hell, her days are never gonna be happy, its a few minutes event but it takes her lifetime, its more than just what you think aby, can't you get the big picture into brains!its her life, her fears, her happiness, her dreams, her hopes, her pride, her everything bottle up in a jar in my mind, it was something meant to stay with her and only be given to her husband,but I took it, I fico ng took it for my selfish reason"I said almost burst out crying
"Seven years aby, seven fucking years but I'm she she's currently living in doom days, its been fucking seven years but I'm sure the memory is still fresh inside her"I said
"Don't panic, we will go look for her even if its seven decades"
"I just hope she will be able to forgive me"
"Yeah she will, don't worry ok"
"How about that clumsy garcon of yours who suddenly spilled you coffee the other day? "He abruptly ask to change the discussion
"Ohh that girl, she's good I think, she's not really clumsy I think, she was just so naive and scared"
"Ohhhh, but why"
"Only Allah knows why"
"Okay then, but she's beautiful any way"
"Don't even go there"I said to him harshly
"Wait,what? What do you mean?"he asked
"Ofcause abs you know what I mean,I've known you for years and I know how cunning you are"
"Ohhhh, wow, now I get it, its really not what you think, she's so quite and beautiful and i.... "
"I said don't!"
"C'mon aby why are you being so defensive and protective of this girl all of a sudden?"he ask
"I don't know too,but maybe you should try preying on other ladies,she can never be your prey, from her personality you should know she's so modest and chaste, unlike the other gold diggers who sale their dignity, so if you're thinking of that just back off"
"Just wow, you're now being the typical elder brother, well if I clearly remember we're into this together"
"Cut the crap, we're not, even when I walk around with bunch of casanovas who show excessively disgusting Interest in sex as friends,you can testify I'm not of your pack!"I retorted back to him harshly
"Chill man, I know, but that doesn't makes you less of a sinner you.... "
"Ofcause I know, but my sin not as grave as yours, I honestly don't dig into ladies door, I don't smash their doors to satisfy my selfish interest even when they spent half the time trying to get me to do it"I said
"Well, so then, did you like that girl? I mean the girl from your diner, if no then can I have her?"he ask with a smirk
"I would rather watch you die in a burning thatch than let you seduce that girl into bed with you"
"Then thats a no I guess? "
"A capitalize no,where are your morals abs? That girl is just 21-22 and too innocent for your disgusting acts,I thought you a brain to be able to different btw white and black? But no I was wrong, I've been living with a brainless creature all these years but still you're not that bad, still useful, maybe I call that a 'blessing in disguise', those whores actually willingly come to you, but she's a whole different person"I said firmly
"Alright then, no one has ever won a tiff with you, so I'm giving in"
"And FYI,I don't like her, I just see her more as an image of a younger sister I wish I had and will do anything to protect her"
"Maybe she can get to appreciate your effort in the afterlife, but I'm sure she's gonna spat right on your eyes after knowing the real you and the stuffs you do behind closed doors"he said mockingly "now who's the real 'blessing in disguise'? He ask with a wink
"What ever,not that bad, I'm not a lecher! "
"Well, let's see then"
"next week is mallam abbakar bello's daughter's nikah"I said reminding him
"Ohh yeah haka neh, he's been a loyal messenger of the Aabaan Aareef's building construction, what are you thinking of doing to him"? He ask
"I've never see him less of a father,he's so trustworthy and honest, maybe I should organize a grand reception for his daughter, what do you think"?
"Yeah, nice idea"
"And we need to go buy some stuffs for him, he's really a kind hearted man with good intentions"I said
"OK then"he replied
The last ride to company was silent ....