I'm Into My Nurse (On Going)

Chapter 2

"I will walk by faith even when I cannot see."
2 Corinthians 5:7

A verse I always hold on to.

Pero kasi, sa buhay may mga bagay talagang kahit ipagdarasal pa natin sa lahat ng Santo, may mga bagay paring hindi natutupad.

Ani nga nila, in God's Will.

Kung nasa Will ni God ang tuparin ang mga kahilingan mo, mahahanapan 'yon ng paraan. Pero kung wala naman, iyon ay dahil mas may mabuti pa na dadating sa buhay natin.

I always believe kasi that God let everything happenend for a purpose. May mga rason ang lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay natin. At iyon na lamang ang pinanghahawakan ko.

If only I could hug those people who are in deep pain, I would. 'Cause like them, I'm also suffering. Napapagod na ako. Habang tumatagal hindi ko na kaya. Tila ba'y gusto ko na lamang magpahinga at hindi na gigising pa.

Napabuntong hininga na lamang ako sa lahat ng mga naisip ko at tumayo na.

I went back to my room to retouch some stuff. Nag toothbrush din ako at bumaba na.

Today is my last day here and I wanna make it memorable before my evening flight.

Today, I went to Jardin des Tuileries and it's really a beautiful park. Naupo ako sa isang bench na walang tao at malayo sa mga tao.
I sighed as I watch the people passing through my sight. If only I could stay here forever. Kahit saan, basta ba malayo sa reyalidad. Duwag na kung duwag. Pero pagod na talaga ako.

I watch my phone as it rings for a call. Si Amber pala. Sinagot ko naman agad. Na miss na ata ako nito eh.

"Hey.." I said.

"Hoy babae!"

"What?" Natatawa kung tanong. Ang sungit naman ng salubong!

"Hindi mo ba 'ko na miss ha?" She said with a pout. Amber is my friend from the hospital. She's diagnosed with the same disease I have but not like me. She have a positive mindset. Si Amber nga ay hulog ng langit para sa akin. Dahil sa kanya, hindi ko naramdaman na mag-isa ako. Pariho kami ng sakit at pariho kami ng paghihirap. Kung iisipin ngay'y mas swerte ako. I have my mother always with me. Nakakauwi pa ako ng bahay kasi nandyan siyang mag-aalaga din sa 'kin. Amber's family isn't like that. Hinayaan nila si Amber na ang hospital na ang mag-alaga sa kanya dahil parihong busy sa negosyo ang lahat. Ang hospital na ang naging tahanan niya.

"Na miss? Hindi ata eh." I said still laughing.

"Ewan ko sayo!" Ani niya at nagmamaktol.

Amber and I talked for about 15 minutes. It was full of fun and love. I'm happy she called to check on me. She's just so sweet and clingy. But she hates it when I call her clingy. Totoo naman.

I was about to stood from my seat when I saw Archer again from one of the bench here in the park. And he's watching me again! Is he here for vacation? He then took his eyes away from me.

Hindi ko na lamang inisip at nagpatuloy ng maglakad lakad. I walked around the park while taking some pictures of the beautiful scenery around me. I wanted to walk the entire length to really admire the formal french garden design of the 17th century.

Gusto kong mag picture na ako naman 'yong kuha pero wala namang kukuha ng litrato para sa 'kin. Kaya'y inilagay ko ang camera sa isang bench at nag pose ako sa harap nito. Nasa likuran ko ang magandang view ng park.

I checked the photos but I ended up deleting it. Ang pangit ng kuha! Tas ang hirap pa nong ginawa kong pag set ng camera.

I tried to try different angles and set the camera. But I ended up sweating without achieving a good shoot. Really? I'm tired already but wala namang kahit isa lang. I was posing for the camera and setting the camera for the past minutes.

"You need help?" I jumped a bit when I heard a voice near me. I raised my head from my camera to see who it is. And to my surprise, it's Archer. Akala ko ba nakakalayo na ako sa kanya.

"Umm... Ah yeah?" I said, slightly panicking. I'm suddenly conscious. I'm sweating a lot and he looks so fresh from his scent and outfit.

I suddenly remembered the first time I saw him. He was pushing the wheelchair for the patient wearing his white uniform which he look so clean with it. Plus with those clean wavy hair and genuine smile. His muscles on his arms were emphasized the way he uses force on pushing the wheelchair.

And now he looks so dashing wearing his white button down shirt partnered with a brown long coat and faded ripped jeans and white sneakers. Dashing all the time eh?

"Are you shy? Or don't you trust me in giving you nice shoots?" He asked with a smile. Oh my God! I think this is the longest statement he ever said to me. And so straight forward!

"W-hat? No! I mean y-eah. If... it's okay with you." I don't even know why I'm panicking. There's nothing wrong in sweating.

"Okay. Give me the camera." He said.

Agad ko na itong ibinigay. I can't handle a long conversation with him 'cause I'm in panic.

"Smile Odella. You look tensed." He said looking on the camera while directing it to me.

"Thank you. This is a big help." I said after we did some shoots. Nang ibinigay niya pabalik ang camera ay namangha na lamang ako. He's already passionate and handsome. And now he can also take nice shoots? I mean, ano pa bang wala sa kanya? Sikat ang pangalan niya sa hospital. A lot of nurses and doctors in our age have a crush on him. Palaging pinag-uusapan kasi he's kind pa daw and well mannered. Kaso, hindi masyadong nagsasalita.

"No prob." He told me.

"Ah... " I don't know what to say next. Should I leave him na?

"Saan next punta mo?" He suddenly asked.

"Um. I don't know. Maybe I'll head to eat my lunch na. Flight ko na kasi pabalik Pilipinas mamayang gabi."

"Don't you mind? I'll go with you. Tonight's also my flight." He told me. Wow... sa hospital nga parang hindi man lang ako matapunan ng tingin tas dito... bahala na nga.

"Ah.... yeah, sure!" I said and gave him a smile.

We both walk together back to the hotel. It's just near from where we were.

"Can I hold your backpack?" He asked that made my eyes slightly widened. But why am I even surprised? It's natural for him to offer that, okay? He's really like that.

"It's okay. Got this." I told him after I recovered from the slight shock. I always have this bag with me kasi na may wheels din para mahila ko lang. It contains my small oxyen tank that is connected in my nose by the small tubes.

We ate lunch together and I can't believe we're actually talking. He's asking me some questions so I answered it all.

"You have a nice pair of eyes talaga 'no?" He suddenly said that made me stop from laughing on a joke he just said. My cheeks automatically feels so hot kaya nag iwas na lamang ako ng tingin.

For sure, pag nandito si Amber pagtatawanan ako non. She would always tease me na may secret crush daw ako kay Archer. Na isa daw ako sa mga nagkakagusto sa kanya kahit hindi naman. Wala talaga.

"Got it from my papa." Pambawi ko after matulala saglit. I have this brown eyes kasi na namana ko kay daddy who is a pure American.

"Uh huh." He nodded with a smile that also made me smile.

"And that," He pointed my lips.

"That smile..... suits you very well." He told me and I couldn't stop my heartbeat from beating faster anymore. Damn you! You have a nice smile too. But I can't tell you that. So why do you have to tell me the same thing? Nahihiya ako...