We scream into the void and the void screams back

I am confusion

So my hair has grown out a lot because I needed a haircut before the quarantine even started. It's about shoulder length now, and I like it?
I wanted to get it cut short in a boyish style because looking feminine is owie, but I'm considering keeping it like this?
I might try cutting it short when I get top surgery to pass more, but right now I'm happy with this?

It's funny because, for most of my childhood, I had my hair cut in a bob like this, then I grew it out the past few years, and then recently had it cut short again, and last time I had, it cut had thee left side chin-length, and the right side shaved down.