Chainsmoking your Love

Shit Happens

Lori was in the hospital. Luckily she had survived somehow, and the doctors were able to pump her stomach in time, however, now she was in a comatose state but the doctor said that she would wake up at any moment. The Loud Family along with Bobby and Ronnie Anne were all waiting outside the room. No one wanted to leave, scared of what might happen if they left, they all wanted to be there, well all except one.

Currently Lincoln was outside of the hospital smoking, knowing that your sister overdose was a hard pill to swallow, but what's even harder to know is that she did it because of you.

Lincoln blamed himself, he had almost thought that she was dead. Lincolns heart couldn't handle the pain knowing that he would be the cause of Lori's death, it pained him to know that he was basically responsible for her near-death. He just couldn't take the pain, so he tried to numb it away, he had found one of the doctors had a pack of cigarettes and took four from the pack. Lincoln still had his lighter on him and so he put one in his mouth and lit the cigarette.

Of course, as soon as he had taken a puff it had hurt his throat a little, due to him not smoking for quite some time, but after a while, the numbing sensation that would cool and ease his mind and body returned. He just sat there, smoking. He was afraid to go inside because he knew or felt that his Family would blame him for what happened.

He didn't blame them of course, he blamed himself and if they blamed him to, then he would agree.

Lincoln just felt like a piece of shit anyways.

Suddenly, Lincoln felt his phone vibrate, he quickly took it out of his pocket and saw who it was. It was Backy calling. Lincoln answered the phone and put it to his ear.

[Lincoln! Thank God! Look, I heard what happened from Leni, we're on our way!] Becky told him

"Wait? whos with you?" Lincoln asked

[Tabby, I thought it would be best to tell her what's going on since you told me she's just as involved] Becky told him

Lincoln Nodded, "ok, thanks, I'll see you when you get here," He told them

[Alright, Bye] Becky said

Both hung up the phone and Lincoln resumed smoking. Right now, he just wanted not to shake in fear or sadness. However, when Lincoln raised his hand to take a hit from the cigarette, his hand shook slightly. Lincoln's own mind and body still held the fear that he once had in him. Lincoln was scared, scared that he was the cause of his sisters near-death, scared that everyone and everything would turn on him in a split second if he showed his face to his family.

But most of all... He was scared of being alone.

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The Loud Family returned home and Lynn looked around at her family and saw that indeed everyone was taking in the news a different way, Both Bobby and Ronnie Anne left to alk around Royal Woods and try to take their minds off of everything. Luan and Luna went into their rooms, while the twins went back to their rooms as well to play to take their mind off of things, Lily was asleep and Lisa was somewhere, Lucy went for a walk, and Leni went to her room. Lynn decided it was time, not the best of course, but still, it was time to come clean.

She went to Luna's room and opened it, seeing the rocker just lying on her bed while the comedian was also doing nothing, but when Lynn entered, the two looked to her.

"I wanna call a sister meeting so everyone meets in Leni's room," Lynn said "tell the others"

Lynn then closed the door and headed for Leni's room. When she entered, Leni was cleaning off her makeup, because she was crying, crying then most everyone, because out of everyone, Leni relied on two people in her life to comfort her. Lincoln and Lori.

And neither of the two were here.

Leni looked up as she heard Lynn enter and she wiped the still falling tears away.

"Need something Lynn?" Leni asked

"we're having a sister meeting, there's something I wanna tell everyone," Lynn said

"what is it?" Leni asked through her saddened voice

"I think we should wait till everyone gets here" Lynn replied

Leni nodded and the two waited, after a few minutes, most of the sisters entered the room, all except for Lucy, who was still on her walk. Each sister took a seat as Lynn decided to step in front of everyone, she steeled her nerves, ready to come clean and admit how most of the events, Lincoln's depression, The bad Luck situation, was all her fault.

"Why did you call all of us here Lynn?" Lola asked

Everyone else nodded in agreement and it was time, time to come clean about everything. So Lynn took in a deep breath in and then out as she looked all of her sisters in the eye.

"I Threatened Lincoln to go to my game! With My bat!" Lynn told them loudly

There was a Loud slap before anyone reply or do anything. Leni had hit Lynn and knocked her younger sister to the ground... Things only escalated from there.

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Lincoln was in his room at Becky's house and he just sat on his bed. He then opened the window and pulled out one of the other three cigarettes, he put it to his mouth and lit it with his Zippo. still had two cigarettes left, he smoked ad he began to feel a little better, However, there was a knock on the door and before he could reply, in walked both Becky and Tabby. Both looked at Lincoln with worry as he sat and smoked. Tabby walked and sat on his right and looked at him, while Becky stood by the door, watching and making sure everything was gonna be ok.

"Lincoln... tell me what's wrong, please," She asked him

Lincoln looked to her, he felt awful seeing her so worried about him and tears actually formed in his eyes as he began to finally talk to her

"It's all my fault," Lincoln told her

"The situation with Lori?" Tabby asked

Lincoln nodded, "Not just that, but everything, every bad thing that's ever happened is my fault"

"Do you really believe that?" Tabby asked

Lincoln shrugged, "I don't know, I know it's a lie, something I've been telling myself for a while now"

Becky approached and kneeled down next to him and tears were present in her eyes as she looked to Lincoln

"Why do you think that? Why do you think you've been lying to yourself?" Becky asked

"I don't know, But I just can't accept that it's not my fault, it is! Lori's in the hospital because of me!" Lincoln cried, tears falling from his face

Tabby had tears fall slowly from her face as she grabbed his hand. Lincoln looked at her and saw how saddened she had become.

"You need to forgive yourself," Tabby told him through tears

More tears fell from his face as he heard her, "I can't...I don't know how to... I don't even know where to begin" Lincoln cried "God why does shit like this happen!?" Lincoln cried

He fell onto Tabby's chest as he let out all his sadness that he's been feeling, and Tabby was there to comfort him as was Becky, all three were crying.

"It's ok, Linc, it's ok, Shit like this just happens Linc" Tabby told him in a soft voice "Shit Happens..." She finished