Immortal (BxB)

Chapter 20 - One Mistake

As days passed the only thing I had in my mind was Xylo. It felt like the thought of him had been glued to me. Considering he was also now my boyfriend overjoyed me twenty-four/seven. It was Tuesday and I hadn't seen him at all recently. He wasn't at school at all on Monday and I wasn't able to see him on Sunday because I was with my dad and Catelyn. It was awkward but I settled down.

It was lunchtime so I was chilling with Jay, we were eating our lunch and talking about our weekends. I did check the time the day I was with Xylo and that was Friday. I didn't mention anything to jay about Xylo giving me a blowjob and me sleeping over at his place. I just told him I was mostly sleeping on Saturday from all the stress with school work and then on Sunday I was hanging with my dad and my fake mum.

"Zane!"

I turned my head to face the voice, it was Samantha calling out my name as she ran over to me with another girl.

"Hey, Sammy" I chuckled as she plopped herself down next to Jay and I on the soft, breezy grass. "Who's this?"

"This is Veronika, she's my best friend! She went over the sea's last year during December. She got back last week." Samantha exclaimed. I smiled and held my hand out to Veronika.

"Nice to meet you."

"Nice to meet you too." She responded softly, taking my hand and shaking it. Jay softly faked coughed to get all of our attention, then he looked at me.

"Soo, how's Xylo?" He grinned, I swear I turned into a tomato straight after. Jay thought him and I had a friends with benefits relationship while the girls knew nothing. I death stared at Jay as I sign to keep his mouth shut. "Right, sorry-"

"What was that all about?" Samantha proposed.

"Nothing!" I blurred the words right out of my mouth in panic. "S-sorry, I need the bathroom." I quickly said before getting up off the grass and running to the bathroom.

Once I pushed the door open I ran in and went over to the sink, turned on the tap and splashed my face with water. I made sure to turn the tap off before grabbing onto the sink and looking at myself in the mirror, a low sigh escaping my lips. What am I going to do... I wasn't sure what to say to Samantha or Veronika. Jay almost completely blew it. Xylo wasn't at school, my ex will show up eventually and ask for me back, and bitchy Claire probably wants to murder Xylo. She probably also knows I'm not a vampire and I did It to protect him.

"Ugh!" I groaned, scrunching my hand up into a fist to punch the mirror when I felt someone grip my wrist, the grip on my wrist was a little tight but not tight to the point were it hurt me, just strong enough to stop me from punching the mirror and potentially cutting open my hand. When I turned around to face them my eyes widened to see him standing behind me, I was completely speechless.

Xylo...

"I see my timing was on point." He said, exhaling softly after and letting my wrist go. I held my wrist and looked away.

"Where have you been?" I muttered.

"Around, why are you trying to punch mirrors exactly?" He asked confused, the tone in his voice showed he was either worried or just plain up confused as fuck.

"It's complicated." Xylo rolled his eyes at my words.

"I see. Do you want to talk about it or?" He asked softly, placing a hand on my shoulder. I have to admit, his presence made me feel safe but I couldn't be with him. Not only is he a guy but he's a vampire! How the hell would I explain paranormal events to do with him without blabbering out the fact that he's not human. It was way to difficult and I didn't want to risk exposing him. Samantha and Veronika might start asking questions thanks to Jay too. "Do you maybe, want to go out for a while, get some fresh air?" He asked gently, rubbing my shoulder softly. I shook my head.

"I just want to be left alone for now, okay?" I said, it was almost like a whisper with a hint of sadness throughout my tone.

"Zane, somethings wrong. You know I'll want to help." He responded, I looked down at the floor from his answer and said nothing. "Do you..want a kiss?"

My head darted up and looked at him, I obviously did but if I did our feelings would just get even stronger. At the same time, all I wanted to do was feel his lips on mine. Ugh, the choices I swear. Fuck it. I pushed myself towards him, till he was against the wall, my lips capturing his in a kiss. I dragged my hands up his chest, holding his neck as our lips roamed around each other hungrily. A soft groan escaped my voice when I felt Xylo gently bite my bottom lip gently. I quickly slid my tongue into his mouth when he opened his mouth for a breath, wanting to hungrily taste all of him. I could feel his warm breath against my lips as I held him close by his neck. His hands travelling all over my body, from my back to my waist, then to my ass. I wanted him just as much as he wanted me, I could feel it. I pulled away softly, gripping onto his shoulders with my gentle hands, our eyes locking instantly.

"W-we can't..." I muttered, breaking our locked eyes before things got too intense. Xylo must've been confused.

"What do you mean 'We can't?'. Zane we're at school, I may be a pervert but I'm not going to blow you or something in the bathroom." He explained. I sighed.

"No...we...we can't do anything, ever..." I mumbled in the sound of a whimper. Looking away. Xylo went dead silent and I knew this wasn't going to end well. All I knew was I had to protect his secret or god knows what could happen to him if people found out he was a living, breathing, bloodsucking vampire.

"Oh." He said in a low, coldhearted way with a hint of displeasing and sadness. When I looked at him to stare in the eyes his reflexes took control, turning his head so I didn't have a chance. When I resaid what I said in my head and thought about it more I realized that Xylo probably though I used him on the weekend. Heartbreak from the words I said filled my eyes.

"Xylo...I'm sor-"

"Don't." He stopped me. I stood there, silent, worried, scared, nervous. "Everyone's the same, aren't they?"

My mouth opened to speak, but my words didn't budge. I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs that I did truly love him but I felt like I couldn't speak at all. Some people say you do what you do without knowing it because it changes the future. Although that is somewhat right but I didn't want to change the future I could see, a future with him. Why would I want to give that up? Someone would be foolish to make that choice. After all, it's not every day you fall in love with a vampire that conveniently loves you back. As much as I wanted to speak, I couldn't. Nothing would come out of my mouth. Xylo let out a low sigh.

"I never would've thought of you to be the type of person to use someone, Zane."

My heart raced, I had fucked everything up and I knew it. His words filled me with guilt. After about a minute of silence, he turned his head to face the door and walked out. I fell to my knees, my eyes watering as I tried to hold back the tears and the pain hiding behind my eyes that so desperately wanted to be released. This was one of those moments I'd never be able to take back. Not long later Jay walked in, he looked startled, almost as if he was threatened.

"Are you alright?" He asked softly, his voice told me he was worried as he walked over and kneeled down next to me. "I saw Xylo storm out the bathroom just as I was coming to see you, what happened in here?" I looked at him, my tears building up as I tried to hide the pain. I wiped my eyes with my sleeves and sniffed.

"I m-made a m-m...mistake" I stuttered. "I l-love him Jay!... and now I r...ruined everyth-thing!.." The harder I held back the pain the easier it showed, I busted into tears as all the pain and regret overwhelmed me, my hands covering my face is despair. Jay looked at me silently, placing a hand on my knee.

"It'll be alright...just talk to him Zane, he'll come around..."

"N-no.. you don't u...understand..." I stuttered again, wiping away the waterfall of tears draining out my eyes. I didn't expect Jay to understand. He knew absolutely nothing about Xylo.

"Don't doubt yourself so much..."

"I-I'm a...allowed too..."

"It's going to be fine..." Jay said, leaning closer to me and giving me a hug, I gripped onto his shirt as tears flooded out of me, I ruined everything, I broke both of us. There was nothing that could fix it.

And I just had to live with that.