You're number 1 to me (Kenma x reader)

Chapter 13

The waiter arrived at the table with our food and we all sat and started eating, chatting happily.
"So what's everyone's favourite dessert?" I asked everyone out of the blue
"I like chocolate cake" my brother started and everyone answered one by one telling me their favourite desserts
When we got round to kenma kuroo jokingly said "pudding"
"No, it's apple pie" kenma corrected him
"Who would willingly eat fruit?" I teased sticking my tongue out and scrunching my nose, everyone laughed and went back to their own conversations.
I was first finished so I excused myself to the bathroom and just like, cried I guess? I wasn't properly crying but I was making crying sounds.
A worker must have heard me and came in to check on me
"Are you okay, sweetie?" She asked in a gentle tone
"Why is everything so different!?" I screamed
"What's your table? I think we should get you back to them." She said
"The table with 11 boys." I sulked. And then real tears started falling
The lady took me by my shoulders and let me back to the table
"Are you sure you're ok?" She asked one last time
"I'm fine, thank you" I smiled at her then went to take my seat
"Woah. What was all that about?" B/n asked
"Nothing" I said simply and turned to face the window, watching the rain fall.

By the time everyone else finished and we were leaving the rain had gotten heavier. I of course, being me, had left my umbrella at home so I only had my coat hood to keep me dry.
When we were walking home I was running on in front. Way in front. The boys were so far behind me I could barely see them from the bottom of the hill.
I decided to stop on a bench and just listen to the rain for a while, as the boys caught up to me.
I casually started humming a song trying to stop myself from full breaking into song.
'Man I really want hot chocolate right now.'
A few minutes later
'Gosh, where are they?'
Another 5 minutes later
'I wasn't that far in front, was I?'
I got up and started walking back the way I came. They were no where to be seen. I kept walking thinking they took a different route.
10 minutes away from the house I heard a noise in a bush but I ignored it.
Then a heard another noise.
'Probably just bunnies' I thought. Once again.... I was wrong

A person jumped out of the bush wearing a balaclava and dark jacket holding what looked like a baseball bat.
"Hi." I said blankly barely even looking at them
They grunted
"Mhm. Ok then"
They grunted again
"Listen dude, I don't care. Just bash my skull in and get it over with" I sighed
They took of the balaclava and it turned out to be my brother standing with a shocked expression on his face
"Why didn't you scream or try and beat me up or anything?"
"Because I don't care?" I shrugged and shoved my hands in my pockets
"I could have tried to kill you though..."
"Go for it. The offer is still on the table, m'dude."
"I-"
I started walking away towards the house

When I opened the door I found all of the boys laughing, expecting me to walk in looking all scared and shaken because obviously they had planned that.
Instead I walked in looking bored and annoyed.
"Did you run into anyone.... interesting?" Asked kuroo snickering
"Mhm. I did in fact."
"Who was it?" He asked still snickering
"My brother, with a mask and baseball bat." I shrugged
"Did he scare you?"
"No, in fact I'm quite disappointed he didn't bash my skull in" and then I walked upstairs to my room
"What is up with her?" My brother asked walking in the door
"No clue but she seemed pretty pissed"
Then they heard music blasting from the speakers in my room

"I STILL SEE YOUR SHADOWS IN MY ROOM! CAN'T TAKE BACK THE LOVE THAT I GAVE YOU! IT'S TO THE POINT WHERE I LOVE AND I HATE YOU AND I CANNOT CHANGE YOU SO I MUST REPLACE YOU OH! EASIER SAID THAN DONE I THOUGHT YOU WERE THE ONE, LISTENING TO MY HEART INSTEAD OF MY HEAD. YOU FOUND ANOTHER ONE BUT I AM THE BETTER ONE I WON'T LET YOU FORGET ME!" I yelled from my room
"Ya, dude. I don't think she's ok."
"She'll calm down eventually"
"I STILL SEE YOUR SHADOWS IN MY ROOM! CAN'T TAKE BACK THE LOVE THAT I GAVE YOU! IT'S TO THE POINT WHERE I LOVE AND I HATE YOU AND I CANNOT CHANGE YOU SO I MUST REPLACE YOU OH EASIER SAID THAN DONW I THOUGHT YOU WERE THE ONE LISTENING TO MY HEART INSTEAD OF MY HEAD. YOU FOUND ANOTHER ONE BUT I AM THE BETTER ONE I WON'T LET YOU FORGET ME"
"someone go give her hot chocolate please" B/n sighed
"On it" lev said making his way to go and make me hot chocolate
"YOU LEFT ME FALLING AND LANDING INSIDE MY GRAVE"
"I KNOW THAT YOU WANT ME DEAD"
"I TAKE PRESCRIPTIONS TO MAKE ME FEEL A-OKAY"
"I KNOW IT'S ALL IN MY HEAD"

*knock knock*
I turned off my music and stopped screaming
"Ya? Who is it?"
"Lev. I have hot choccy"
I flung open the door with my eyes huge like a squirrel on speed
"Hot. Choccy?" I breathed
"Mhm" he said holding out the cup
"Thank you" I took the cup and set it down then hugged him "I'll stop screaming now if you want"
"Yes I would like my ear not to bleed please" he laughed nervously
"Hehe. Ok so more screaming then"
"Bye, enjoy the hot choccy"
"Bye, thank you"
I shut my door and began gulping down the hot chocolate even though it was scolding hot it was gone within a minute.
I walked downstairs with my cup in my hand looking chill as ever
"Bro. How-"
"Did she down scolding hot chocolate?"
"I bet she pouted it down the drain"
"Nah, Y/n would never waste hot chocolate."
I put my cup in the sink and went out into the garden to watch the stars. Forgetting it was still raining I left my coat inside.

After 10 minutes I went back inside barely wet and walked back up to my room.
I didn't put any music on this time, I just sang to myself without the music
"Here's to the ones that we got. cheers to the wish you were here, but you're not. Cause the drinks bring back all the memories, of everything we've been through"
"Toast to the ones here today, toast to the ones that we lost on he way. Cause the drinks bring back all the memories, and the memories bring back memories bring back you"
Little did I know, someone was listening from the hall
"There's a time that I remember, when I did not know no pain. When I believed in forever"
"And everything would stay the same" came a voice from outside my door
"Now my heart feel like December when somebody say your name" I sang as I edged closer to the door
"Cause I can't reach out to call you, but I know I will one day, yeah" came the voice
"Everybody hurts sometimes, everybody hurts someday, ayy ayy"
"But everything gon' be alright, go raise a glass and say, ayy"
"Here's to the one's that we got"
"Cheers to the wish you were here, but you're not"
"Cause the drink bring back all the memories, of everything we've been through"
"Toast to the ones here today, toast to the ones that we lost on the way"
"Cause the drinks bring back all the memories"
"And the memories bring back memories"
"Bring back you" I finished as I opened the door to see none other than kenma standing there. His face turned bright red and he fan faster than sonic downstairs
'Hm. Weird' I thought
And then I fell asleep