Mirrors and Shatters - Johnlock - Trans!Sherlock x John - Sherlock bbc

Chapter 14 - "It's alright Bumblebee, it's ok"

TW: Suicide mention, cutting mention, drugs, a lot of screaming and crying, very angsty (I am so sorry)

For the next few weeks everything was a blur for Sherlock. He felt uneasy, several times he would leave the house and come back with some sort of drug hidden in his coat pocket.
Something was wrong. Sherlock felt like something was terribly wrong. One morning he found himself throwing up in the toilet.
"Sherlock?" Mycroft knocked on the door. Sherlock didn't answer his brother, too busy puking out his guts.
This concerned Mycroft and with the twist of a handle Mycroft entered the small bathroom to see his little brother bent over the toilet bowl.
Mycroft swiftly moved closer and bent down. He placed a hand on his little brothers back and began to rub.
"It's alright bumblebee, it's ok" he said softly just showing a small amount of emotion. Sherlock began to cry and once he was done throwing up he cried into Mycroft's chest. Mycroft rubbed his brothers back.
"Oh Sherlock..." he said softly. He lead Sherlock to his room and noticed that his brother still had his binder on.
"Sherlock you need to take off your binder it's been on for way too long!" Mycroft said sternly. Sherlock shook his head. Mycroft then tried to get Sherlock's shirt off to take of the binder himself.
Sherlock screamed "STOP!!" Pushing himself away from Mycroft. He was shaking terribly, and sobbing uncontrollably.
"Please... don't....." Sherlock whimpered softly. Mycroft knew something was wrong. Sherlock used to never have a problem when Mycroft helped him out of his binder but now he did?
"Sherlock, what happened?" Mycroft asked calmly scoring over closer to his little brother on the bed.
"T-here was th-this guy. I-I trusted h-him wi-with my secret, a-and he ga-gave me co-cocane a-and one t-time wh-when I was hi-high h-he" Sherlock wasn't able to finish the sentence from the sobs that he choked out. Mycroft understood and pulled Sherlock into a close hug. Why did this have to happen to his brother again?!

The throwing up in the toilet continued, and Mycroft could only wonder why Sherlock hadn't had his time of the month yet. Mycroft suspected what was happening.
"Sherlock?" Mycroft entered his brother's room after hearing loud sobs. He saw his brother curled up on the bed. He saw a stick on the ground and immediately went to comfort him.
"Oh Sherlock..." Sherlock clung to his brother screaming.
"No! NO!" Over and over he screamed. Mycroft held him as Sherlock tried to escape his elder brothers arms. He no doubt wanted to cut at his skin, or perhaps even overdose. Mycroft held his brother there as he screamed and pleaded to let him go.
"JUST KILL ME!!" He screamed trying to push away from Mycroft. Mycroft felt himself start to tear up. Sherlock didn't deserve this. He had done nothing to deserve any of this. The screaming stop and just turned into soft crying. He shoulders sagged and he had giving up fighting.
Mycroft held him close.
"Please just kill me..." Sherlock softly said through sobs. Mycroft felt his heart shatter in a million pieces when he heard that.

I am so sorry. The next chapter will be fluffier I promise. I guess if you kind of didn't understand what was happening, Sherlock was raped and now he has just found out he is pregnant. Don't worry I have everything planned out. Umm I don't have much to say that hasn't been mentioned before other than, MYCROFT IS LIKE THE BEST BROTHER EVER! Little brother issues me is over here only wishing I had as good of a brother as Sherlock does. Anyways I hope you all are well.
-Umber