Chapter 53
LORRAINE
I took longer tonight with bathing than I do with most days. The moment I shared in the car with Razor kept on playing in my mind like a song that I enjoyed listening too..
Each time when I closed my eyes I would imagine his hand going up my thighs, and forcing it's way in my knickers. I don't know why I was feeling like this, I shouldn't be feeling like this towards him. Razor is young, same age as Neo. Not forgetting that he was one of Neo's closest friends, this would be a big scandal. I should be continuing mourning my husband, It hasn't even been 3 months since he passed on...
SIBA
The following morning, I wasted no time. I went to the school to register for the 3 subjects that I wanted to rewrite. It was actually a much easier process, they didn't require much but a copy of my ID, a copy of my matric certificate and the registration fee
Since it wasn't month as yet, Thato was the one who gave me the registration money. I told him I would pay it back month end but he insisted that I shouldn't pay it back..
Admin: Here is your receipt
Me: Thank you
Admin: This is your timetable and a list of the textbooks that you should get at CNA, they will help you a lot
Me: Thank you very much
Admin: The classes have already started but you not that much far behind
Me: I'll start attending tonight
Admin: Okay Sisi... Have a lovely day
Me: You too
I took my things and walked out. When I got to the gate I received a call from Neo..
Me: Hun
Neo: Nana
Me: Hey.. How are you?
Neo: I'm good and how are you?
Me: I'm good too
Neo: Did you got and register?
Me: Yes I did now I'm walking back home
Neo: Did they require any registration fee?
Me: Yes they did
Neo: And where did you get the money from?
Me: Thato gave it to me
Neo: Thato gave it to you?
Me: I borrowed it and I was going to pay him month end but he said it's okay I don't have to pay back
Neo: What's next? He's going to supporting my child?
Me: What do you mean?
Neo: I'm just wondering because this Thato seems like he's doing everything for you
Me: Please don't be like that
Neo: Remember Mahlodi and the shit you gave me when it came to her?
Me: With Thato it's different
Neo: How?
Me: I really don't wanna do this with you right now
Neo: Then when should we do it? Because lately when I raise issues up you always run away
Me: That's because I don't wanna fight with you! If we fight it's going to take me back, to that day when the fight got out of control and you dragged me to the gate
Neo: You never going to forgive me for that right?
Me: I'm just saying
Neo: How are we meant to start over if you hold my mistakes against me? I got shot on your behalf but you don't see me bitching about it to you
Me: Neo bye
Neo: Siba!
I hung up....
MAHLODI
I knocked in his office.. He moved his eyes from the file and looked at me..
Razor: Good morning
Me: Good morning
I made my way in..
Razor: Seeing such a beautiful face is definitely going to be a good day for me
I smiled at him...
Me: I hope I'm not disturbing you
Razor: Not at all... I'm actually waiting for my first patient
Me: I'm hers because of that
Razor: Shoot but don't kill me
I chuckled..
Me: the Client you are defending is related to my Client
Razor: And?
Me: I think we should all settle out of court, my client is ready to settle if yours is willing to do so too
Razor: I think we should take it to court
I sighed..
Me: I know you new and you wanna prove yourself but don't do this.. Don't embarass yourself like this. This is your first case you don't want your colleagues second guessing you
Razor: Maybe we should discuss it more
Me: Okay
Razor: Over dinner tonight
Me: I don't know
Razor: A business dinner
I nodded..
Me: Okay then we will discuss it tonight over dinner
Razor: I'll pick you up at 18:30
He took out his phone and handed it to me.
Razor: Bless me with your contacts
NEO
Pat: What's wrong?
Me: It's nothing
Pat: Talk to me.. What's wrong?
(Silence)
Me: I don't wanna lose Siba. Her and the baby the only thing that makes sense in my life right now. A lot of things are happening that can drive me mad, they the only sane part that I have in my life and I don't wanna lose them
Pat: What makes you think that you going to lose them?
Me: She seems to be finding comfort in someone else
Pat: What you did to Siba that day, it was brutal and painful Neo.. You lucky she's back with you because if it was Me, I wouldn't even consider taking you back
Me: I know Pat I'm trying to make up for that, I love her and I don't wanna lose her
Pat: Don't push her away again, this time she might not come back again
KAT
I expected the pills to do away with me, take my life and rid me of this pain. Unfortunately that didn't happen, I think my Mother found me in time and called the Ambulance. I felt very dizzy, and weak. I didn't care about that, the emotional pain was the one that cut more deeper than anything.. I wish that I could die, I want to die..
