Chapter 58
SIBA
Fights in a relationship are very stressful. I thought that now since he was back we were going to have a peaceful night, but the bed felt cold even when he was sleeping right next to me. I laid on my back and stared at the ceiling, it was very dark. I turned my head and looked at him, contamplating if I should wake him up and talk to him. At the same time I don't want him sleeping on the couch.
Me: Babe
He didn't respond..
Me: Babe
I turned on his side and shook him a little..
Neo: Siba I told you that I don't wanna fight
Me: We not fighting.. I'm not fighting
Neo: What is it then?
Me: I noticed that you were a bit down when you came back, is everything okay?
Neo: Everything is okay don't worry
I held his hand..
Me: Please talk to me
Neo: I just have a lot on my mind that's all
Me: Like?
Neo: I don't wanna talk about it okay?
Me: Okay
(Silence)
Me: You know I'm very excited about starting school tomorrow
Neo: You are?
Me: Yes I am
Neo: That's good
Me: Babe please I'm trying here
Neo: I just wanna sleep Siba
Me: Ohw.. Okay
Neo: Good night
Me: Good night
ROSE (KAT'S MOTHER)
The following morning I decided to go and see my Daughter at the psych ward. I was surprised to hear that she got a concussion last night..
Me: What happened?
Nurse: She was found banging her head against the toilet seat
Me: What? That doesn't sound like my daughter.. My daughter is not crazy!
Nurse: Your Daughter is suffering from clinical depression, a severe case of clinical depression. It said on her file when she was brought in
Me: Kat wouldn't do that to herself
Nurse: I'm sorry but have you came across a depressed person? Do you know how they behave
Me: No but I'm just saying, my Daughter would never hurt herself like that
Nurse: She already tried to kill herself and here you are talking about she would never harm herself, she's here because she tried to kill herself
This was Fustrating...
Me: Can I at least see her?
Nurse: Unfortunately No... She's in a very bad space right now
Me: When can I see her?
Nurse: I don't know but we will call you, she'll be isolated for a while
Me: This is not Prison!
Nurse: We are doing it for her own protection, the next time she won't be banging herself against the toilet seat. She will succeed in killing herself
Me: Can you at least tell her that I stopped by?
Nurse: I'll try
Me: Thank you
SIBA
The next morning Neo drove me back home. I was even late for my shift but I won't be breaking his neck for that, he seems like he's going through the most for me to put him down more...
Me: Thank you for bringing me back home
Neo: You welcome
Me: You'll call me later on?
Neo: Yes I will.. Have a nice day
Me: Okay you too
Neo: We love you too
He leaned over and hugged me..
Me: Please don't disappoint me again, this time around I won't think twice about leaving you for good
Neo: I know Siba, you will leave.. Please stop threatening me
Me: I'm not threatening you, I'm just saying
Neo: You always threatening that you going to leave
I broke the hug..
Me: That's a lie
Neo: You don't say it, but you always thinking it
Me: If you act right then I won't leave but if you give me a reason too then I will
Neo: I know you've made your point
Me: Drive safely
Neo: I will.. I love you
Me: I love you too
LORRAINE
I showed up at his office the following day...
Me: Good morning
Razor: Good morning beautiful lady
Me: How are you?
Razor: I'm good and you?
Me: I'm well
I put my bag on the table..
Me: I called you last night
He looked at me...
Razor: I know
Me: Would've been nice if you called back
Razor: I was in a dinner meeting with an important client, it would've been a suicidal mood to actually leave the client and call you
Me: I was just saying Razor
Razor: Are we going to have a problem here? Because I'm already sensing a problem, and I don't like problems
Me: We not going to have a problem
Razor: Good.. Now if you don't mind, I have a lot to do.. I'm swamped today
Me: Okay... Guess I'll hear from you
Razor: Goodbye
MAHLODI
I was all smiles in the morning, I actually enjoyed my dinner with Razor last night..
Mom: You seem happy
Me: I am happy I woke up feeling happy
Mom: What happened?
Me: Nothing.. Work is going well, everything is going well
Mom: Are you sure it has nothing to do with a Man?
My smile disappeared..
Me: No mom.. I'm just at peace with how my life is that's all
Mom: What's happening with Lorraine's company? What results have you gotten?
Me: It's not easy Ma.. As much as Lorraine is going to drive the company down through the drain but.. She has senior partners. Good senior Pastors who will make sure that the firm doesn't go down that easy, they also have a lot to lose if the firm goes down remember?
Mom: Mahlodi I don't wanna hear that.. You are the best lawyer out there, you cannot possibly tell me that a bunch of other lawyers from the Marè firm are a serious competition?
Me: I'm trying Ma
Mom: Try harder!!! I want that company and I'm serious about it, we didn't spend money for you to go to school all these years to come back and tell me the nonsense that you telling me right now! Get me that firm!
SIBA
Phindi: How did it go between you and Neo last night?
Me: I even regret going there?
Phindi: Why?
Me: He was very cold towards me, seemed like something was bothering him. I know he's going through a lot but he doesn't have to be an ass
Phindi: Since you saw that he wasn't okay why didn't you try to talk to him?
Me: I did try
Phindi: With that attitude?
Me: I was a lot calmer
Phindi: Men don't like a woman who is always shouting at them and giving them stress, he will go out there and look for someone else who won't give him any stress. I'm not saying you should let him walk over you but he also has feelings Siba he's a human being after all.. If you can't be his peace then who is going to be? If your relationship is not good with him, then let it end because it's not good. Don't be a reason why it ends, because like it or not. You have a part of him growing inside of you, he's always going to be here. I just don't want you seeing him happy with another woman. It's going to kill you, trust me it will!
ROSE (KAT'S MOTHER)
I didn't know what to do, I didn't know who to turn too so I decided to stop by and see my Pastor. To talk to him about Kat's situation.
Pastor: I hear you
Me: I just don't know what to do, my child is destined for greater things
Pastor: Every child is destined for greater things, sometimes it's us Parents who ruin their future
Me: I pray, I fast and I come to church
Pastor: That is not enough. See Rose when you wish bad on other kids, that bad falls onto your kid. You can fool everyone but you can't fool God. Until you fix your heart, until you ask for sincere forgiveness from Siba nothing is going to go well for you. What you doing to Siba is not working because you don't know but that child prays. That child prays and her prayers are dangerous. Prayers arising from tears, and a broken heart. They don't bring good, that child was seeking nothing but love and a Mother figure. You were trusted with that child but instead of doing good by her, you did evil. There's blessings you need to get from that soul, but instead her tears are raining upon your life that's why everything is happening to your child. You cannot chant blesses and curses with the same tongue it doesn't work like that. Stop what you doing to Siba, your witchcraft is not going to work on her. That generational curse never affected her because God already had plans for her. God knew her destiny before she was even born, way back when she was still in her mother's womb. God already planned her future, who are you to revoke God's word? Fighting Siba because of her destiny, you are indirectly fighting God. You are poking his eye and I tell you nothing is going to go well for you. If you continue you will witness your child running up and down these streets naked because a prayer from a broken soul is very dangerous. After everything you have done Siba's heart is still open for you. After all the evil you have done to her, that child's heart still remains loving and pure towards you and your child. That's why she's put right with God and that's why you can't get to her, because the God we serve doesn't look at your physical being. He looks at your heart, yours needs some work. Change your ways Rose, Repent before it's too late!
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To be continued
