-A Little Help- (KuroKen)

14

(Kenmas POV)

The next day had come quickly and I was currently eating breakfast with Kuroo. He was eating pancakes, eggs, and bacon while I had a small serving of eggs and a piece of bacon. I was getting better with eating, mostly due to Kuroo forcing me to eat. It made him smile everytime I took my first bite, so I began to enjoy eating with Kuroo. I love you, Kenma. Right he had said that to me last night, or did I dream it? I couldn't have, could I? I mean I didn't even have a word to put to my feelings before but now that I did... it felt right. Maybe I love Kuroo? Can I do that? Love my best friend? Can I love Kuroo?

"So," He began the conversation while I ate the last bit of my eggs. "What do you want to do today?" What did I want to do? Not go home that's for sure. His mom had asked about my eye this morning but Kuroo said it was an accident during volleyball practice, technically it wasn't a total lie. It did happen in the gym.

"I just want to do something with you." I can't really hide my true feelings around Kuroo anymore, I find it too hard. The words I want to say just pour out even if my brain tells me not too.

Kuroo said he had some ideas for the day and I trusted him blindly. I mean was it really blindy? He knew everything about me, he knew what made me feel nervous or scared, he knew what made me feel happy and safe, and I want to properly thank him for that one day. Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like without Kuroo, would I still be alive?

"Kenma," I was snapped from my thoughts by Kuroo. It was strangely hot for mid september so we were on our way to get ice cream. "What are you zoning out for?"

"I was..." Is saying thank you enough to actually thank him? I mean everything he had done for me, could I return the favor with two words? "Thank you." I guess we will have to find out. Kuroo laughed and threw his arm around my shoulder making me flinch. I don't think I'll ever get use to his random touches which are becoming more frequent.

"For what? If it's the ice cream you don't have to worry my mom gave me the cash." He moved his arm from around my shoulder and simply rested it on my shoulder closest to him. I didn't mind it though.

"Not for that!" I laughed and punched his side playfully. It's funny to think that just a few months ago I was barely able to speak to Kuroo and now I think I loved him. Does he love me? I know he said it but was he just trying to calm me down? Did he really, like really actually love me? "I mean for everything, you know?" I paused waiting for him to respond but when he didn't I began to explain. "Getting me into volleyball, helping me with my attacks, the eating, and then last night. I just feel like-" I feel like a burden to him. If I tell him I love him will he be forced to be with me. I don't want to make Kuroo upset by gluing myself to him. "Thank you." I can't tell him.

Suddenly Kuroo had stopped walking causing me to pause as well. He turned to face me, removing his arm from my shoulder. "Kenma. You don't need to thank me. You're important to me and..." He looked down at his shoes and I saw his face become slightly more red. Was he getting too hot, did he need water? Maybe it was the weather? "I care about you. So you don't need to thank me or feel indebted when I help you, ok?" He began to walk again but I couldn't move. Kuroo cared about me. What exactly did that mean? How did he care about me? Before he could get too far ahead I jogged to catch up. "Plus," He continued. "It will all be worth it when I can see a large, genuine Kenma Kozume smile." He grinned at me largely, it made my stomach flutter.

After getting ice cream, Kuroo and I walked around the town and he took me to all his favorite little stores. He even let me look inside the video game store, although I didn't buy anything since games are expensive. I did find a cute, small plushie of my favorite video game character but left without making any purchases. Before long the sun was beginning to set and I expected Kuroo to want to go home. I didn't though, I still didn't feel like facing my parents with my eye. It wasn't swollen anymore but it was bruised slightly and the cut was still visible. However, Kuroo didn't want to go home either and instead we ended up at the park, sitting on the bench, just watching the lake in front of us. Nothing was happening at the lake but either way we sat there, in silence, watching. It was surprisingly comforting just being with Kuroo in the silence, today was nice.

"Today was fun." Kuroo spoke up after a while of quiet. I guess we were thinking the same thing.

"Yeah."

"So, about last night." I turned my gaze to face him, but he just continued to look at the lake in front of us. "What I said..." Oh right he said he loved me. I had forgotten about those words, they had gotten lost in my mind, swept up in today's many activities. Finally his eyes left the water and found my own. "I meant it." I was left speechless, what did I say back? Kuroo loved me, do I say it back? Did he love me like someone loves a sibling or did he love me like parents love each other? How do I love Kuroo? Even though I had a name to put the feels in my heart I still didn't really know what it meant to love someone. "You don't need to respond." He looked back towards the water. I missed his eyes looking into mine though.

"I think..." I don't want him to feel like it's one sided even if I don't really understand this myself. I don't want Kuroo to feel alone like I felt alone all those years. If I could do one thing to help Kuroo, I was going to make sure he never felt the pain I felt. "I think... I love you too." My voice was slightly shaking from my nerves but I wasn't sure why. Did love make people scared? He pushed his gaze back onto me and stared into my eyes as if he was checking to make sure I was joking.

"You don't just have to say it back if you don't mean it. I don't want to force yo-"

"I mean it Kuroo." He grabbed my hand in his own and continued to stare at me, still looking for signs of a joke. "I love you." His eyes, while still looking into my own, were no longer searching. It's like he accepted what I said as the truth. It was the truth. I don't quite know what it means to be in love and I don't even know exactly what love is but... I know being around Kuroo makes me the happiest and I can't imagine life without him. I know when he grabs my hand my face feels hot and my heart skips a beat. I know when he laughs and smiles at me my stomach feels funny and I can't help a tiny grin show on my face. Whatever these feelings mean, whatever name matches the symptoms, I don't care as long as I'm with Kuroo I don't care what it's called. 

I'm not sure when it had happened exactly but before I knew it Kuroo and I were closer then we had been before. Was he leaning in? Was I leaning in? I don't know exactly who started it. I saw Kuroo close his eyes slowly and I did the same, I continued to lean in. Eventually it hit me, his lips on my own. His face was hot and his lips were warm. I felt breathless, my stomach flipped, my heart stopped, it felt... amazing. However, it ended only a few seconds later. That's all it was, a small kiss after confessing our love for each other. I think I loved kissing Kuroo almost as much as I loved Kuroo, almost.

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Finally took them long enough :))

Also srry its a bit shorter I'm sick at the moment but I still want to make sure to update everyday so don't worry! Chapter might just be a bit shorter then normal for a bit.