Everything I Never Said

What was my mistake?

Was loving him a mistake?
Is this what God has planned for us?
I tolerate his bullies,insults and beatings
Just because I loved him.

I now regret,and ask myself.
What was my mistake?
Is it our ill-fated relationship?
Was my love not true enough?

Did he really love me?
If yes,then why put me in pain every day.
What was my mistake?
Is it because I could not give him a child of his own?

He has become worse than an animal.
The cruel moments of being beaten up by him,will never erase from my memory.
Will I ever find a way to run away from him?

                                                   -Kulthumnassor