Waiting For Someone (SB19 Ken)

chapter 4

Ken's POV

Until now atasha didn't look at me she's always looking at her phone.. i just realize now that im stupid for not telling the truth

'Dre paano kaya kung yayain mong kumain sa labas baka pansinin ka nyan',sabi ni sejun, no hndi nya hilig kumain sa labas mas gusto nya pa ng mga merch kesa sa ganyan hyst.

'No hindi sya mahilig kumain sa labas eh'

'Ano pala gusto nya?',tanong ni josh

'Merch',napatingin silang apat sakin

'Kidding'

'Umayos ka nga',sabi ni stell

'I don't know what to do guys'

'Ken come here',sani ni teacher hong nagulat ako kasi tinawag nya ako

'Bakit po?'

'Just go here',sabi nya napalunok muna ako bago tumingin sa apat tumango lng sila kaya naglakad na ako papunta kela teacher hong

'Why teacher hong?',i asked with a nervous voice

'You and Atasha need to talk now, ken',sabi ni teacher hong napatingin ako kay atasha at naka tingin lang pala sya sakin

'Ok po teacher hong excuse us',lumabas na si atasha kaya lumabas na din ako

'Im sorry atasha promise i don't want to lie on you but please forgive me i can't handle this'

'Ken why did you lie to me? Yes i know her, but just her name okay? I know her name because of your letters',nagulat ako sa sinabi nya

'I really sorry atasha i didn't mean that'

'That's it, you didn't want that but why? Is something wrong with me ken? you, yourself said that you will forget her? but why is she back here now? so she can get you back? go ahead and get it all, that's what you want, right? ung pag agawan ka',sabi nya sakin pero alam kong pinipigilan nya lng ung sarili nya na sumigaw

'There is nothing wrong with you atasha, you already have everything atasha, you are not difficult to love, you are not difficult to take care of, I know I am wrong because I hide from you, but I hope we can get along now'

'Ken tell me',sabi nya habang tinititigan ako sa mata, kinabahan tuloy ako bigla

'Do you still love her?',tanong nya sakin, biglang bumilis tibok ng puso ko sa tanong nya, ano nga ba ang isasagot ko? Mahal ko pa nga ba si sophia? O wala na sya para sakin?

'Ken answer it',sigaw nya sakin pero hndi ganun kalakas

'Do you still love her ken?',tanong nya uli kasabay ng paglabas nung apat na ka member ko

'Ken for third time i asking you again, do you still love her?',tanong nya uli lumapit na dito samin ung apat hndi ako makapag salita

'Ano ba ken sagutin mo ako',inis nyang sigaw sakin at umiyak na

'Nasasaktan na ako ken, araw araw na lng mas iniisip mo yang si sophia kesa sakin na girlfriend mo',sigaw nya, ganun na ba ako kasamang boyfriend kay atasha? Hndi ko man lng sya naisip hyst.

'Kung oo isasagot mo ken tapusin na natin ito',sabi nya at lumakad palayo bigla na lang tumulo ung luha sa mata ko

Oo minsan nasasakal  na ako kay atasha pero hndi ko sya pwedeng pabayaan. Hndi ako pwede makipag break sakanya dahil sa kabila ng lahat ng ito ay dahilan

Pinunasan ko ung luha ko at tumabok para habulin sya pipindutin nya na sana ung botton ng elevator pero hinarangan ko agad bigla ko syang niyakap ng mahigpit hndi ko pwede pakawalan si atasha.

'Let me go ken we are done now',sabi nya sakin pero hndi ko parin sya binibitawan sa yakap

'Im sorry atasha im really sorry I can't afford to lose you to me atasha'

'Ken alam kong nahihirapan ka na kaya please kung gusto mong bumalik sa kanya sukuan mo na lang ako',sabi ni atasha at tinulak ako palayo

'No atasha i can't',sabi ko at hinila sya palapit sakin

'You know how much i love you right? So please atasha don't break up with me',pagmamakaawa ko hndi ko kayang mawala sya

'Im sorry ken pero papalayain na kita',sabi nya, naiwan akong nakatayo dito at umiiyak dahil kay atasha