lil fast disclaimer to all the ppl with depression and eating disorders I'm not very educated on such subject so plz correct me if I'm wrong and also this is not meant to be offensive
Shay pov
I woke and rushed to the bathroom and threw up why the hell am I throwing up
Gabby-You ok
Yea
You want me to call ma
Yea
Gabby-Ma
Ma- what you want child
Gabby-Shay throwing up
She walked to the bathroom
Ma- when was you last period
Umm....like 5 weeks ago
Ma-you could be pregnant
No I can't no I'm not
Here
She handed me pregnancy test
I toke them and they were negative
Gabby- ok so your not pregnant
Ma- Shay do you ever like ummm ...
Go ahead
Umm do you ever do something like suicidal and then just smile about it
No mom don't it's not
Gabby- actually
Shut up bruh dayum
Ma-Language And what is she talking about
So you know that supposed tat I got ya that's not a tat
Ma- so wtf is it
I toke the blade out my mouth and placed it on my night stand
Ma- I told you to stop caring that and what that gotta do with anything
I cut myself and rifes mom stitched it
Ma- I should've got you tested too I just didn't wanna do that to you cause you were their when you dad died
What are you talking about
Ma- your dad side suffered from bipolar eating disorder and depression and that's why your dad died
So your telling me that now when I could've known about this all these years of think it was something wrong with me and it is but it's not my fault it yours all your this is one fucked up ass family I put on my clothes and got in my car and ft bronny and left
B- yooo
S-hey ummm
B- you good why are you crying
S-it's some family shit and Your usually there when I have family issues and I'm currently not in Cali so can we please talk
B- yea wassup
S- ummm so this morning I woke up and I started to throw up
B- you not pregnant are you
S- no nigga
B- oh ok continue
S- and my mom thought I was pregnant so I toke the test they came backs negative and then she ummmm she ......
B- hey don't cry and take your time it's ok
S-she told me that my dads side of the family suffers from bipolar eating disorders and depression and then she explained that that's why my dad died from us depression and gabby knew and didn't tell me and gabby had alr got tested
B- it's ok just know that I love you and I'm always here and you know my dad will in a heart beat send a jet or buy you plane ticket to come and stay here ok so if you don't wanna go home in Georgia you can always take a 5 to 6 hour flight to Cali and stay here as long as you want
S- thanks b you always know what to say can't wait for you to wife somebody up but if I don't like them they gotta go
B-now how you not go like yourself
S- boy you will not wife my up
B- we'll see about that I'm in it for the long run
S- ok bronny
B- bye I love you
S- bye b love you too
Call ended
Then I got a text from my mom saying she was sorry I didn't care I just wanted to know if I had anything or not so I went back home and got dressed put on this
And we went to the doctor I was waiting in a room then the doctor called
Harris ShayLee
And I went in so we're doin a test for depression and eating disorders
Yep
Doc-Ok come with me
After a series to questions and yes I have bipolar depression
Doc- umm also if your planing on having kids this can be passed down
Wait does this mean omg wtf my life can't get any worse
I got in my car and sat in a empty parking lot and texted rife
Shay 💙💍
Hey umm we need to talk but not in person cause I can't really see your face right now it would just hurt me worse
Sharife💙🔐
Ok wsp
Shay💙💍
I'm breaking up with you
What why
It's a lot and you just can't handle what I have going on in my life and even if you can I can't do that to you I'm sorry
So your saving my heart by breaking it ok whatever man
I'm sorry I love you
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Sharife pov
I ain't even do anything I love her and she just broke up with me
I went to Omar's room and saw gabby crying
What happened
Gabby-Shay she said she won't talk to me because I kept a really big secret from her
What is it cause she just broke up with me because of it
Gabby- she has bipolar depression and she just got diagnosed with it and she got it from our dad and for all these years she blamed herself for our fathers death because our mom didn't tell her and she got angry and left the house and then came back got her test done and it came back positive but she was fine until the doctor said that it can be passed down to her kids and she left
That's why she broke up with you
I'm going to go find her
I drove to her favorite place
Hi
Shay- plz go away
No I'm never leaving you Shay no matter how far you try to push me away
Shay- I love you ok I just can't do that to so just leave me alone
I'm not leaving you
Shay- I don't love you ok dayum she raised her voice
Look me in my eyes and say that
She looked up with her glossy eyes
Shay - I..... don't ......want to love you but I just do ok I don't want to love you because I come with ego problem, trust issues, anxiety , family problems, suicidal thoughts, and now this that's too much on me and I have to deal with it and I wouldn't wanna have to put that in you or your family or if we had a kid
Look at me I love you I always will even if that means I have to wait on you til we old and gray ok cause I love you that much we've been through some shit I would take a bullet for you because I would want you to have my kids not some thot who I don't know who is using me for money
Shay- Sharife Omar Cooper I love you to the moon wrap around 8 times then come back your a person who can get under my skin like no other someone who's touch makes chills go down my spine you've shown me what love is and what's it's like to be spoiled which I hate and you know I love your family and by the shit I put you through they probably hate me but it's ok cause I love you more that's all of them put together and I would die for you take a bullet for you
And we kissed and it got deep and we had sex in public
