Bakugos P.O.V
That damn icy-hot, always sticking his nose were it dosnet belong.
I had forgotten to do my homework last night as I hadn't felt any motivation to do anything except lay there an wallow and self pity, it had been a long night. I couldn't let my mother hear about this or she would be furious, I felt myself flinch at the thought.
I had let my guard down today , allowing icy-hot to walk all over my carefully placed mask, I wouldn't let it happen again . I just needed to get through this awful day.
I couldn't believe I had let myself fall asleep so carelessly, I always have terrible nightmare , which always seem to be changing , I can never be prepared for them.
Of course icy-hot had to go and poke around, now he's probably worried . No he couldn't be, they wouldn't care even if they knew.
Its why I don't bother to tell them about everything that's going on inside my head. They didn't need to know , if I was going to try to convince myself that I deserved to be a hero I could at-least deal with a couple wimpy problems.
Even if my mask is cracking and emotions is relief through.
I couldn't let it shatter.
Unfortunately I never get what I want.
"Hey bakubro..!" I heard kiri call out to me. I felt myself involuntarily flinch at his loud voice though I quickly tried to pretend like I was just shifting my position as I turned towards his voice.
"What do you want weird hair" I asked with a dull tone, having no energy to put into yelling.He gave me a quick glance of concern before a smile flooded his features once more.
" I was just wondering if you wanted to hang out with the bakusquad at lunch" his smile was alluring, I wanted to say yes , wanted to desperately to break the ugly cycle, but I didn't. I couldn't.
"No thanks." I mumbled, feeling my eyes start to close subconsciously. I slapped myself quickly, jolting myself awake.
"Are you okay bakubro you look exhausted ..?" He asked
"M'fine" I muttered, leaning my head on my hand in a desperate attempt to keep my eyes open. My mind was trying to force sleep upon me but I couldn't. I let out a low growl which Kirishima seemed to hear.
"Are you sure your okay ..you zoned out for a second there , you really should get some rest you know"he pleaded. I wanted so badly to do as he said but my with my exausted state I did the only thing that would get him to leave me alone. I yelled at him
"IM FINE OKAY , J-JUST LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE" I yelled at him , the whole class turned to stare at me including are teacher.I gulped, realizing what I had just done. There eyes felt like daggers, I couldn't be there I needed to get out of there. "M'sorry Kirishima" I muttered under my breath.
"I'm going to the bathroom" I whispered as I darted through the door of the classroom before anyone could say I word.
I ran away like the coward I was, feeling tears rolling down my face. When I reached the bathroom I quickly slipped into a stall, locking it behind me just as I began to break out into a full on sob.
I had just yelled at kiri, the only one who convinced me that maybe someone really does care . He would hate me now , more than he already did that is.
I sat there and cried until only silent sobs wracked my body. I felt extremely tired, like my limbs were frozen in place. What a great day to be alive.
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Tired of pretending (kiribaku)
RomanceKatsuki Bakugo is tired , tired of acting, putting up a wall to hide fears and insecurities. Over time it slowly Chips away, causing him to slip up. When he is faced with his innermost fears will he be able to heal with help from the class and one...