Nyi ( English Translation Book)

Chapter 25

Chapter 25

"MaHar?"

She is driving like hell, I can't comfort her, and she won't listen to a word ....

"MaHar Slow down, Stop the car now, stop and tell me what is it all about?"

I am really frightened her tearful eyes and reckless driving like this....

"MaHar, STOP THE CAR RIGHT NOW!"

I know she won't listen, so I take the steering wheel turn it instantly, thanks god she hit the brake. If she won't we are nearly going to hit the tree. And I take her hand to comfort her but she removed my hand and covers her face and crying like hell, what's wrong with her, what's wrong with me? Did Nyi do something wrong as far as I think nothing wrong, I am really confused, she nearly killed both of us... but I take my temper down and asked her ...what's all about ...

"MaHar, what is happening? If you won't tell me what am I going to do? You were leaving the house without a reason for anything, why? What happened?"

"You never understand me, you will never understand what I feel, and now you don't even know why I am crying ..."

I am confused, what should I do, I really don't know what is happening.

"I ... I really lost confidence on you now, I ... feel lost ... I feel .... I know you don't love me at all, but anyway I am going to marry you.. You are mine... Oh I lost my own confidence too..."

"MaHar what is wrong with you? Did Nyi do something wrong if this about him I am really sorry, I am sorry OK"

"NYI NYI NYI all the time, why can't you feel mine? Why always him? Why I am your girlfriend... we even discuss about our future together, even about to engage..Oh please I beg you do understand me ... why can't you even pretend to understand me, know me .....are you testing me... am I not worthy enough to you? Why? Why can't you feel my pain?"

"I am sorry"

"Stop saying sorry."

She still crying the tears won't stop coming, she heave and take a long breath took a long sigh ... but still crying ....

"You know if I still have my pride like I did in my past, I really...really abandon you right away. But now OH Z I can't let you go. I can't... What if I do ... you would be lived in the shameful life of people spitting ocean... I know it, I don't want to see you like that...I love you Z I love you so much ..."

"Oh MaHar"

"YES YES, Z I AM CRAZY IN LOVE WITH YOU, every day every time I looked in to your SNS, I can see everyone talking about you, every insulting, poking, I can't stand it any longer, I hated what I seeing my love has been insulted, offended, inbred by them .... I know you are not a uneducated, naive, and stupid enough to offend by it... Oh please Z please ..."

I know, I know who were trying Nyi and I to be together and the one who wants us to be apart, I know people who think they are the person who can even break through the bound and denigrate but who cares? Not everyone have the same situation to face and challenge by their own circumstances. Both Nyi and I know we just pretend those aren't happening and ignore but my girlfriend take it the insult personally.. I'm really sorry for her .....

"Oh ZZ.. I promise you OK, I promise you that I won't let you down by those ... please if you really want to build our future you must buried those behind... you need to ignore it, I will definitely make up everything. I promise to give you a decent family and love and care and admiring and warmth and compassion and adulation and sympathy and ardors everything ... please get those left behind of it, I'll give you the best of mine, asked me anything to make up for that, you know now how much I mean it you are a man you must understand it Z, Oh Z"

"Why are you saying like this dear, You are right I love Nyi, yes I do, but the things is I love him not because of those ... not because of ... not because of just desiring ... but because of ...you are saying that I am just a man who want it based on the passion and desire ...but it is not just like that, you are insulting me, more than frigging on me... please do think about of our decency please ..."

"Oh no Z, NO no no... I am not insulting you, I am not. This is the end of my own pride my own self-esteem, as a woman Z, I let all mine go all because of the one who I loved, who I adore. I sacrifice those for who I love to gain his pride again. I am giving you everything I had all because I love you more than anything. I know this is not easily forget about him, but please try it at least, try for me, try ... I can wait... I am patience I am waiting for you as long as you need, please try it for me MAUNG!"

MAUNG! She called me Maung, I lost my voice, oh Ma Cho you were right, you did see everything what will going on.. Since 5 years ago.. A sudden saying of her addressing me as MAUNG hurt my heart a bit, it really sting.I am not used to it, I am not used to that pronoun MAUNG, Oh Nyi, she is right. We cannot be together; we should try to go on our own life now. Is it because you ashamed of me that you did deactivate your social media connection, all the people that insulting to us, because of my love are you losing your pride too, what should I do now, what am I going to do now... I see her in her eyes she is the one who really did care for me too, Oh I must care for Nyi too, I must give him his own pride... I must ...I have to.

I grab her in to my chest hugged her tightly, I cannot promise myself but I asked her for help ...

"Oh please, take me from him please take me from him"

I can't close my eyes dare not to close, I have to stand it I can't cry for a man like this anymore, I have to try to stand straight ...

Oh Nyi, I pray unto Lord please don't ever we met in next life like this again.