Vents

Please don't read unless you really want to

I don't know what to do anymore...

I just talked to my brother about my suspicions of depression and he goes on this big ole rant about how I'm just trying to get attention when I'm just genuinely trying to figure out if I have any mental issues! He said he could read me like a book when he can't even tell me my favorite food! He acts like he knows what I do everyday when we actually barely see each other because we hate each other. He even had the nerve to tell me that I was a lesbian just to get attention. I'm flipping terrified due to my sexuality because I know there's people out there that could just decide the want to kill me or rape me because I like girls! And does he think it's fun for me to know that my family could disown me for my sexuality!

I hate this so much. No one at home even bothers to listen! No one knows that I stay up all night wondering what the most peaceful and less painful way to go out would be!

..... I know a lot of you are probably tired of hearing about this and I'm sorry.. it's just that there's no else I can talk to here...