No Love (Completed)

Chapter Sixteen-Depressed

After I Lost The Baby…I Lost A Peace Of Mind

Im Broken Inside And All I Can Do Is Cry And Ask God Why

Why Did He Take The Life That Was Growing Inside Of Me Was I Not Ready? Did I Deserve To Have My Baby Tooken For Me?  Does He Has Something Better Coming My Way

Just A Weeks Ago Me And August Was Getting Ready To Tell The World That We Was Having A Baby

But Now There's Nothing To Tell

My Baby Who I Can Only Dreamed Of Isn't In Me No More 

I Never Saw My Baby Face..I Never Got To Hold My Baby In My Arms And I Never Got To Give My Baby All The Love My Mother Didn't Give To Me

And You Just Don't Get Over Things Like

At This Point Of My Life I Was

Going Through Alot

My Mother Was Dying,Me And Elijah Wasn't Speaking,My Communication With C'amarya Was Breaking,And August And I Were So Distance From Each Other 

We Were Together And Sleeping In The Bed But I Still Felt Alone 

I Was Feeling Alone Cause August Was Distancing Himself From Me

After I Miscarry Our Unborn He Just Threw Himself In His Work And Just Swept It Under The Rug

We Could Be In The Same Room And Not Say One Word About The Baby

I Understand He Was Going Through It Just As Much As I Was

But I Needed Him I Needed Him To Care I Needed Him To Step And Care About Me More Than Ever But He Wasn't Doing And I Don't If He Was Just Being Careless Or If He Really Didn't Care

We Could Always Talk To One Another Now Its Like We Can't ..I Just Wish He Would Show That He Loves Me And That Care About Me Still

Cause At This Point I Have No Idea Where Me And Him Stand

Its Been Weeks Since The  Miscarriage

And Im Just Now Getting Back To Work 

I Was Still Ambitious Thats Hasn't Changed …Its Just I Wasn't Happy 

I Wasn't Happy So I Wasn't At My Best When Im Working 

With All Thats Going In My Life I Couldn't Find A Way To Be Happy 

And Nobody And I Mean Nobody Actually Knew What I Was Going Through 

I Was In This Dark Dark Place And I Couldn't See The Light Or The Brighter Side Of Things

I Had Become Hopeless To The Point Where When I Forced A Smile On My Face I Just Burst Out In Tears

I Was Mentally And Emotionally Unstable

I Wasn't Functioning Right And I Couldn't Think Straight 

I Had To Vent..I Felt Like I Needed To Speak To Some One Who Really Knew Me

My Heart ..My Brother 

And I Knew Just Where To Find Him

I Pulled Up In My Old Block Where My Brother Slanged At

He Was On The Corner Shootin Dice With Several Other Niggas

Elijah Noticed My Car Pulled Up And Slowly Walk To My Car

I Unlock The Doors

Elijah Got In The Car

"Hi" I Said Softly