Secrets turn into Regrets

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Best Friend.

Wag ka munang umiyak Chae, pigilan mo

I hailed for a taxi and asked the driver to take me to the cemetery

Ang sakit puta

Pagkarating ko sa semeteryo, dumeretsyo ako kay Xavier at nang makaupo ako sa harapan niya ay bumuhos ang aking mga luha

Umiyak ako nang umiyak sa mga sumusunod na minuto at ramdam na ramdam ko ang pag vibrate ng aking cellphone sa aking bulsa

I fished my phone from my pocket and turned it off

Patuloy pa rin ako sa pag-iyak habang nagsasalita kay Xav

Dapat sinabi ko na sa kanya noon pa yung nararamdaman ko

"Xav, bat ganito? Hinintay ko siya ng tatlong taon Xav"

Secrets turn into regrets

Alam ko naman na wala akong makukuhang sagot galing kay Xav pero at least napapalabas ko ang mga nadarama ko

"Xav, may mali ba sa akin? Bakit hindi ako yung pinili niya? Nalilito na ako sa mga nangyayari Xav"

"Walang mali sayo Chaeng. You're my best friend" I was shocked when I heard her voice

Lisa?

Tinignan ko lang siya hanggang sa umupo siya sa aking tabi. I did my best to not look at her and I'm glad I succeeded

"Where's your fiancé?" tanong ko

"Oh. She went to see her cousin and other relatives" sagot niya

Katahimikan

After a few minutes, she offered me her handkerchief. I took it and wiped my tears then she suddenly chuckled

"You know Chaeng, when we first met" tumingin siya sakin na may maliit na ngiti

"Naging madali at masaya na ang buhay ko. You were with me through my ups and downs sa loob ng apat na buwan. You made me feel that I was loved and appreciated" sabi niya

Naluluha na naman ako pero nabigla ako sa sumunod na sinabi niya

"We asked Jennie's cousin to find you para malaman mo kalagayan ko doon kasi alam kong worried ka na. You're too fragile for me to handle Chaeyoung. I can't afford to see my best friend hurt because of me, but it seems like I've hurt you now"

Anong katangahan naman yan Lisa?

"Lisa, you should have told me! I don't care if masaktan ako nang dahil sayo kasi mahal kita! We could've at least tried Lalisa" pabulong kong sabi sa huling pangungusap

Was it the wrong time, what if we tried giving in a little more to the warmth we had before?

Natinginan lang kaming dalawa. Ngumingiti pa rin siya kahit na paiyak na siya. She's trying to say something so I waited

"Chaeng, the moment I knew na papabalikin ako sa Thailand, I immediately took the chance kasi it's better na makalimutan mo ako. Na makalimutan mo yung nararamdaman mo para sa akin. And as what I've told you, I asked Jennie's cousin to tell you pero ot seems like it didn't get to you" ani niya

"So all those time, you knew na papabalikin? Bat hindi mo sinabi agad? I would gladly support you pa nga eh. At sino ba yang cou-"

"Nevermind Jennie's cousin. Nakakatampo na siya kasi hindi ka niya sinabihan" pagputol niya sa sinabi ko

Napaka talaga ng cousin na yan ni Jennie. Nakakapang gigil

"Remember the story I told you about a child who grew up in a household of busy people?" pagpatuloy niya

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