Poetry and Writing

Apologetic

I'm sorry;
For hurting you
Causing you trouble
For faking a smile
Pretending every thing we do I love it, when in reality I just want to crawl in a hole
Acting like I'm fine but when I'm not
Having a smile even though I wanted to cry
Sorry for all the time wasted on me
I'm sorry for not being a good friend 
For not talking to you when you reach out for me
I've hurt you more times than I can count
I'm sorry that I've lied to you time and time again
For not being a better person
A person who can be there for you like you have to me
Sorry for not putting effort on my part
I know you must hate me now and I don't blame you
How can I think that after all this time...
After everything I did...
You wouldn't come back to me

I am truly sorry for being a horrible person